Saturday, September 18
Okay, got it.
My
earphones and
bb cream arrived too!! ^^ Wonderful.
Anyway..
Hey guys~
I need to focus on work now, I saw your tags,
thank you so much ^^! I'll catch up when I'm done with clearing my work.. which is a lot considering how much time I have thrown away.
Will post on 8 Oct, after my big exams.
It's a matter of life and death.
Okay, it's a matter of wasting this whole year away.
And I will change, I will improve, I promise.
I will be a new person in time to come.
...
Ciao for now.
Text me~ Labels: driving
Tuesday, September 14
headphones
WTF MY SENNHEISERS DIED AFTER 5 MONTHS. I was too lazy to send in the 2 year warranty, so I'm getting new Klipsch Image S4s. Apparently they sound amazing.
I just hope I get used to earphones instead of headphones. I hate earphones because I feel like my ears are raped all the time. Please ears, please get used to ear rape T_T
For now I'm using abby's startrek headphones which make me look like I'm some space rocket captain. Please arrive soon earphones.
remind me why I want to get out of here?
My class is made up of people who take Computing and Physics.
Being a lit student all the while I've never been able to fit into it, I tried at first, only to get looked down on, hurt, betrayed, badmouthed, ostracized and everything you can possibly think of I have gone through with this class. No one will ever know what I went through at the start of the year. The sad thing is, I can forgive for a while, but soon I'll start bearing grudges again. I cannot let go of bad things that people have done to me. It's hard to forgive forever. Being an antisocial loser only made everybody do those things to me, so I cannot blame them because I admit I wasn't likeable. I admit. It isn't really their fault. Still, I didn't deserve much of the way I was treated.
Being in this class is extremely depressing and I very, very badly want to leave.
Today, one of my classmates taking physics asked the computing students:
Hey does anyone know who is the LAST IN COMPUTING?
I'm very INTERESTED TO KNOW.
Cause it's like, everyone get a A, then like AAAAAAAAAA then one person get E.
Translation:
WOW WHO IS THAT RETARD WHO IS SO STUPID TO FLUNK AN EASY SUBJECT WHICH EVERYBODY GOT A? COME, POINT YOURSELF OUT TO ME SO THAT I CAN LOOK DOWN ON YOU.
...
...
Wow. That was hurtful.
I'm flabbergasted.
True, I never pay attention in class, I sleep and meow in class and if I don't I am distracting my friends such that my teacher gave me permission to skip her classes, I have never done a single tutorial and I don't program and I never did homework or studied. I don't even know where we are for computing and promos are in 2 weeks. I still have more than 25 tutorials and assignments to do. From the first lesson.
I deserve to be last in class for computing.
But do you know how it feels when someone says that to you? Do you know how it feels to be the last in computing when last year everybody regarded you as a computer pro and asked you to solve their computer problems - Oh you don't know how bad it feels because you've never been last. You've never felt depressed trying to study.
If you were to be given a list of grades, and you purposely look for the lousiest grade and at who's last (just to feel better about yourself cause you can look down on the last in class) it's okay. It's perfectly acceptable to be human. It's normal Singaporean behavior.
But saying it out loud to all of us, about a subject that you don't even take?
Remind me why I want to leave this place?
I really hope I can take study leave for the whole of next year.
Because right now I am sick of them.
P.S. I still love a lot of you guys.
P.P.S. If I take study leave I'll just attend computing and lectures. I love the computing people. I REALLY love the computing teacher and I'm awed at how people like my mom can be married and terribly nice people with not a single drop of evil in them like my computing teacher stay single. Sigh.
exams
As for exams, I think I may fail. I haven't been working hard but I just don't want to study anymore. But I have to or my papa will be sad. Ugh. I don't deserve to spend his money.
Driving theory on thursday. During chemistry. FML
LMAO
Mark: *some hokkien words*
Abby: Are you speaking hokkien?
Me: *
shouts across canteen bench* Did you just say cheebye?
Mark: Did you just call me a cheebye? WHY? WHAT DID I DO TO OFFEND YOU?
LMAO
Labels: fuck you, headphones
Sunday, September 12
Success! Friend requests will now be sent to 13 friends. Once they confirm your friendship, you will be able to see each other's profiles.
I am on a mad facebook adding spree
in case one day I become a hobo and I need money then my ex classmates will all be successful people and I can stay at their houses one by one. The more the better.
It's so weird to mass friend request though.
They don't even know who 'Musho' is.
Tuesday, September 7
KANINA!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I'M SO FUCKING PISSED
I HAVEN'T BEEN THIS PISSED IN A LONG WHILE.
Let me restate the notice outside the ~*♥library♥*~
Reading @ BT (the library's name) aims to get children aged up to 12 years to read.
Open the public but only members may borrow books.
I went there again. I was thinking of going there to study, and if they won't let me in I'll ask about my letter
and demand why they haven't replied me.
There was a new librarian (indian woman) so I was happy and i like indians and thought maybe she'll be less strict. So I went in.
Librarian: Can I help you?
Me: *shakes head*
Librarian: Then what are you doing here? Only children are allowed in.
Me: I'm a child.
Librarian: Are you below 12 years old?
Me: No.
Librarian: Then you cannot come in here.
Me: But the notice outside doesn't state that I can't come in here.
Librarian:
(takes out notice) No see look here we already state it in the rules
Me: it says open to public and im the public
Librarian: Oh yes? And did you read the whole thing?
Me: Ya
Librarian: You sure? See the first sentence?
Me: (
reads) "Reading@BT aims to get children up to age 12 to read" Ya? So?
Librarian: The rules say you cannot come in if you're not 12.
Me: No it does not.
Librarian: Yes it does, read it.
Me: No look, that does not mean I'm not allowed to go in.
Librarian: Read again it says you cannot go in!
Me: Look, this is just the aims, just the goals. It does not equate "PEOPLE ABOVE 12 CANNOT GO IN"
Librarian: I've been trying to explain to you for so long, what part of it do you not understand? (
oh dear me, what part, what part?)The management already say that you cannot go in?
Me:Then you should change the notice because it doesn't say it.
Librarian: Just for YOU, YOU, ONE PERSON?
Me: Not just for me but for everybody who's been chased out! I've seen so many people being chased out!
Librarian: And how do you know? Have you been here for 5 hours? (
wts why she ask me? you chase me out first thing i go in, how to be here for 5 hours? ^_^)
(Now she starts admitting that she chases people out) Even the senior citizen come in and want to read newspaper we say cannot. I've seen teens your age go in and they go in and chat non stop and make alot of noise and when we tell them silence, can they say we never tell them to be silent? Library have to be silent one right?
Me: (
thinks: what the fucking cheebye are you rambling) Uh.. *points at 1000 signs saying "SILENCE! NO FOOD"* Also, I come in here and I didn't make noise!
Librarian: (changes topic) I am part of the management! And we say you cannot come in! If you want to come in fine, bring your friend below 12 inside!
Me: The notice says that it's OPEN TO PUBLIC! But you're chasing out everybody who tries to enter!
Librarian: I am NOT chasing you out, I am asking you politely!
Me: YOU
ARE CHASING ME OUT.
Librarian: I am asking you politely to leave!
(Fucking kaobehkaobu lah this person. Don't you hate it when someone says they're not doing something just because you're using a harsh phrase to describe what they're doing? Overall, aren't they doing the same thing? Like when I was a shitty student and my school was going to expel me, I asked the school "So ya gonna kick me out?" And they say OH NO NOT KICKING U OUT, JUST TRANSFERRING U TO ANOTHER SCHOOL ^_^. FUCK? DON'T YOU MEAN THE SAME THING? What pussies.)
ANYWAY. She took out my angry
letter-
Librarian: Are you the one who wrote this letter?
Me: Yes I did, and
why didn't you call me?!
Librarian: I am busy. Very busy!
Me: Okay.
Librarian: So well, you can't be in here.
Me: Okay then you shouldn't put that misleading notice, because it doesn't explicitly state that PEOPLE ABOVE 12 CANNOT COME IN! You should change the notice so that people don't come in and get chased out! It's so misleading!
Libarian: But it will be too
rude to put that on the library front door.
(Oh, she just admitted that it wasn't in the rules because it's too, well, "
rude"! So let's chase out everybody who can't translate "Library aims to get kids to read" into "Library only allows kids"!!! ^_^ SOooOOoo polite nehs~*!!! ^w^)
Me: Well this is important and you should write it on the front door so that we don't go in! It should be "Only children up to 12 years old are allowed to enter"!
Librarian: What about the parents accompanying the children? Huh? What about that?
(LOLCUCUMBER she said it in a triumphant tone as if that justified everything)
Me: "People above 12 year old are not allowed to enter unless accompanied by children below 12 year old" LOR.
Librarian: (takes out paper) So you want to CHANGE OUR RULES? Write it down here I pass it to the management.
Me: I am not changing your rules!
Librarian: YOU ARE! You just asked me to change our rules! Just write it down here! I'll pass it to the management.
Me: (thinks: The fuck? I'm just trying to make your notice say what you actually want?)
FINE.
Look, if I were the librarian, I'd say to this obnoxious girl in front of me "
LOLS SOLI, TRUE, WE NEVER MAKE RULES CLEAR BUT WAT CAN U DO HAH? ITS OUR LIBRY WE DO DAT LORS HOHOHO. AND WE SHALL CONTINUE BRING MISLEADING! U CANT DO ANYTHING NYEHNYEH. I SAY YOU CANNOT COME IN SO GET THE FUCK OUT, PERSON ABOVE 12. WAT U CAN DO? NUTHIN :D:D:D"
Instead of arguing that what they're trying to enforce is already in the notice, as the librarian I'd say that and piss me off real bad. And continue
surfing porn on the computer being busy. After all it's my goddamn library! I do what I want! But noooooo this person had to throw me all her false logic and piss me off so bad.
ANYWAY.
So I wrote on paper EXPLAINING to them how "
Library aims to get kids to read" =/= "
ONLY KIDS ARE ALLOWED" and what they should state on the front door.
"People above 12 may not enter unless they are accompanying a child below 12" Oh i was ~*totally*~ changing their rules ^w^
...How fucking dumb can people get?
Librarian: *reads and has no comment* OK so I'll pass this to the management and you can leave now.
Me: I want to clarify something-
Librarian: I DON'T WANT TO ARGUE WITH YOU
Me: Wait I just want to-
Librarian: I DONT WANT TO ARGUE I DONT WANT TO ARGUE WITH YOU
Me: No wait I-
Librarian:
I. DON'T. WANT. TO. LISTEN!!!! If you got anything WRITE TO THE MANAGEMENT!
Me: (
I wanted to scream STFU) I just want to make clear that this library will never allow us in right?
Librarian: I DONT KNOW JUST WRITE TO THE MANAGEMENT
Me: Because I don't give a SHIT about all this if you guys are never letting us in.
Librarian: THINK WHATEVER YOU LIKE WAIT FOR THE MANAGEMENT TO REPLY
(wtf you said you're the management)...
Me:
(just to piss her off) Yeah see? It's common sense, you take out this notice to anyone on the street and see if they can tell you that we're not allowed in? ^_^
Librarian: I DONT WANT TO ARGUE
Anyway she went into hysterics and I pissed her off so badly so I said thanks and left.
Yeah.
Of course, I was very condescending and rude. But look. I was in love with that place. I wasn't going to give it up for no reason. But I guess I have to since it's their library.
But they had to argue crap with me and that killed me. Look, it's been there for 3 fucking years and it's empty, what a bloody waste of AIRCON AND SOFA AND TREE. I had to fight back until they go crazy.
It's also an OCD. I expect all the rules to be STATED. CLEARLY. I mean, of course I will not walk into library naked and expect them to write there "NO ENTERING LIBRARY UNCLOTHED". That's unreasonable of me.
But what I am requesting is reasonable. I am requesting them to NOT BE MISLEADING. To write down an IMPORTANT RULE. Sure it's rude, you said so. But if you're enforcing it don't be a
pussy and not write it for all to see. 做事要光明正大嘛！！
Most of the time I'm a peaceful creature. I hate arguing because I believe most of the time I am wrong. I'm very unsure of myself. I am very tolerant of the shit people do to me. I don't want to hurt them so if they're doing something unreasonable I will accept it for the sake of maintaining good relationships.
I am a submissive person and I never say no.
But when I feel strongly about something, when I feel that i'm right and somebody is doing something so stupid that it kills my brain, I get very condescending and I'll FIGHT TILL THEY CANNOT FIGHT ANYMORE AND DRIVE THEM CRAZY. Believe me I will. If you're mean to my friend, especially online, you get it from me. I'll flame you like mad. I WIL GET ALL MY INTERNET FRENZ 2 PWN U.
But that's only when someone goes against any values I feel strongly for, which is rare.
.....
So yes, readers! I assume you're all not kids-
If you ever pass by BUKIT TIMAH COMMUNITY CENTER
Please
go into the library and argue with the librarian like I did until they decide to put up a notice.
Best,
walk in naked.
Thanks.
P.S. I normally do not swear this much. Especially hokkien swear words which are the worst swear words. But I are angry.
Monday, September 6
Shirts I bought for dad
Haha my mom said she bought them for my dad long ago.
The hell. I just bought them, lmao.
This is what you get for having too many things and not allowing us to buy anything. You start think everything is yours, hahahah.
Well at least she won't question him where he got those X)
Butiftheyfightshewilltakethemaway.
I SO PISSED!!!&@^*!
Usually I am a tolerant person
I won't get pissed off unless you do something out of line
So if you piss me off and I lose my temper
It's not a good sign.
Because I remember.
Anyway I was bored so I walked to the community center
Passed through a construction site to get to the entrance
START GAY PROSE
And saw the most precious place ever :)
It was a tiny empty library with sofas :)
There was a big tree in the middle :)
There were fake vines hanging down from the balcony above :)
It was a jungly library and there were pictures of kawaii animals :)
END GAY PROSE
The next day I entered the library to study.
It was empty again except for the librarian. NO ONE goes to the library. It's always empty.
Librarian didn't say anything.
I loved everything.. the comfy sofas the mini tables and the tree and - oh - it was the perfect place to be on a sunday afternoon.
Then a girl came in and she got chased out.
..
Then my friend came in to join me and she got chased out.
I WAS LIKE, THE FUCK?!?!?!?!?!
Apparently the fucking library is for CHILDREN ONLY!!!
Wait why was I not chased out am I a child or something
THE LIBRARIAN WAS SO FUCKING MEAN!!!!!!!!
"No it's for children and parents only!"
OH YEAH THEN WHY DIDN'T YOU CHASE ME OUT-
HE SAID WE COULDN'T ENTER!!!! THE LIBRARY OF THE COMMUNITY CENTER WHERE I LIVE. TMD!
Why? Because it's filled with children's books and therefore, ONLY CHILDREN BELOW 12 CAN ENTER!
OK I'm repeating myself here.
So I demanded to see where they said it's for children only. Where's the RULES of the library. Where's the RESTRICTION.
NO PROOF.
THE GODDAMN MANAGEMENT NOTICE SAID 'Open to public'.
KNNCCB I went straight up to the office to complain.
"Oh, they say it's open to public but it's for children only."
"But we're the public!"
"But it's for children only."
DON'T YOU HATE IT WHEN SOMEBODY ARGUES LIKE THAT?
So I wrote a complaint letter telling them to let us teens in and demanded that they pass it to the management and before I left I said "
TELL THEM TO CALL ME!!!"
As you can see I was very pissed off and I kept cussing. When I am utterly pissed I lose all my manners.
I was only at the library for half an hour but
I WAS ALREADY IN ♥LOVE♥ WITH IT AND I WAS DETERMINED TO SPEND
THE REST OF MY LIFE THERE!
NOOO!!! I WANT TO GO INTO THE LIBRARY!!!!!!!
AND LOOK, CHILDREN DON'T FUCKING GO IN THERE. The "get children to read" project is FAILZORS. I only found out about the library because I was bored and decided to visit the cc.
LOOK AT HOW EMPTY IT IS #1
Also look at the horrible librarian
heisprobablywatchingpornonthecomputer
LOOK AT HOW EMPTY IT IS #2
Also look at those dear sofas and the wonderful tree ^_^*~
LOOK AT HOW EMPTY IT IS #3
WHAT A GODDAMN WASTE OF RESOURCES IF YOU GODDAMN CHASE EVERY PERSON OUT!!!
WHAT THE FUCK LA IT'S NOT LIKE THERE'S NO SPACE.
THE LIBRARY IS FUCKING EMPTY OH MY GOD. OH HOW DARE THEY, HOW DARE-
Calm down musho. I know it's painful to lose a loved one but -
AHHHHGHHHHH
THEY BETTER CALL ME
AND SAY I CAN ENTER
BECAUSE RIGHT NOW
I AM REALLY
REALLY
ANGRY.
Computing class
My teacher is so so nice.
First I was eating foam bananas.
And she hit me with her marker and told me not to eat. XD
..
And then I brought an eyelash curler to class for the sake of being random.
(
we do a lot of random things in class.. like googling "ORIGAMI VEGINA" (
hahaha XXXXXX you lzr dunno how to spell))
She gave us a 10 minute break.
And just as I was about to curl my eyelashes..
She went over to me and said "OK now you can eat."
I stared at her, with an eyelash curler on one side of my face
and said "OK thank you."
HAHAHAHHAHA.
Then I passed my curler around.
I'm such a shitty student.
Taobao
My bag from taobao arrived!! It's fugly but..
OMG ONLINE SHOPPING IS SO ADDICTIVE AHHHH T_T
I'm getting prismacolors after my exams!!
I'm going to get hoodie with kitty ears!
New panda bag!
AHHH MUSHO STOP SPENDING!!!! T_T
..I also want to go Seoul with Abby.
AHHHH!!! T_T
Pig nipple
Lulu was eating pork belly when she noticed a lump on it.
Lulu: Dad what is this?
Dad: Oh that? It's the pig nipple.
Lulu: !!!!!! FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUWHAAT???!! FUUUUUUUUUUUUUU FUUUUASASAGAFSHAGFASH
...
Lulu: So I'm eating a girl pig?
Dad: Of course not. The nipple wouldn't be so small then.
Lulu: FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
HAHAHA SERIOUSLY LMAO.
Luckily I don't eat pork belly.
HAHAHAHHAH!
check it out
Inside of you by Infant Sorrow is a really funny song!!!
Old as ancient skies,
I've had these wandering eyes,
but you took me by surprise,
when you let me
Inside of You.
Inside of You,
Inside of You,
there's got to be, some part of me
Inside of You.
...
And the world explodes,
I've never been down this road,
Teach me how to grow,
While I'm movin'
Inside of You.
The song sounds like a classic love song so you can imagine how funny these lyrics are XD
INSIDE OF YOU.
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Story_of_the_Eye
Most fucked up novelle ever written.
It's so upsetting :(:(
Lifehacks
http://kisspic.com//i/Life-Hacks-You-Should-Know_cKile_0.jpg
Very useful :)
so.
so it's so easy to call me names, just like that?
...the hell. I'm tired.
-year
this year i got smarter i found out more about people
i swore less my drawing improved i started skipping lessons i had more friends i dreaded loneliness i got fat
next year i will be happy i will
stay with a friend i will study hard and shop a lot and draw many pretty pictures i will be prettier have better skin bake lots of cookies
cook healthy dinner with friend and exercise and
slim down-
when i grow up i will own a garden a cat a rabbit a dog my own business kids with personality and
a pikachu car
mmm. haha
goals.
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