Sunday, January 23
over it!
I'm over everything - that includes phone call - and
all is ok.
I'm getting used to the '
accept it and move on' thing now. Never brood about something for more than a day, that is.
Life's too short to be miserable. Life's too short for complaints.
It was something I should have realized eons ago.
(for now)
back2work
Since I cancelled my SAT, I went shopping for 2 days.
I think I just burst my shopping quota for like one billion years wtf.
Bought 7 more
clothes, which includes a
kitty printed dress
I need to start dressing like I am eighteen and ~*girly*~
I love
Uniqlo~
And!
I think everybody who goes shopping with me should play "The Price is Right" with me.
Because I'm real good at it!
Lulu: Guess the price of this shirt.
Me: Uhhh... looks $39.90-ish.
Lulu: ...........It's $39.90.
Me: Wtf you kidding me
Me: Holy shit it really is $39.90?!!
We can't stop singing 'Let's go to the mall' by Robin Sparkles. It's a troll song from How I Met Your Mother, which I need to watch in due time. Along with House, Gossip Girl, Dexter and other cool stuff.
COME ON JESSICA, COME ON TORI
LET'S GO TO THE MALL YOU WON'T BE SORRY
PUT ON YOUR JELLY BRACELETS AND YOUR COOL GRAFFITI COAT
AT THE MALL HAVING FUN IT'S WHAT IT'S ALL ABOOT-
.....
Hi. I'm back.
Watched 2 movies:
Burlesque (why is this PG when it has homosexuality, adultery, gay sex, sex, near nudity and vulgarities) and
Hereafter (this is good).
***
Got my
new iPod touch 4 and fully protected it!!!
It's a 64 gig!
***
I bought my
first book.
It is titled '
The Perks of being a Wallflower' by Steven Chbosky.
I still can't pronounce his name.
***
A
talking mameshiba keychain is hanging from my phone now. When I'm talking to someone over the phone I'm going to press the button and mameshiba will say "
eda mameshiba des" or
"Unn-nyoooo".
And then I'll exclaim "
What the heck was that!!? Was that you?!"
And pretend to freak out. Yeah bby!!!!!!
Uh, actually not. But it's pretty cool. It says like five different things.
***
... OMG WHAT I BEEN DOING /guilt
Back to work Musho!
types of songs
Types of songs and how I manage to kill them...
Bad song 1
1st play: WHAT IN THE NAME OF JUSTIN BIEBER'S RIGHT NIPPLE IS THIS
*delete*
"Bad" song
1st play: This is hilarious.
*Keeps to troll people*
Example: Baby by justin bieber
The only good song this band has song
track 1: wtf no
track 2: wtf no
track 3: wtf no
...
track 8: WHOA THIS IS GOOD
*deletes the rest*
Example: Two Weeks by grizzly bear, Bruises by Chairlift
I-like-all-songs-by-this-awesome-band-song
track 1: KEEP!
track 2: KEEP!
track 3: THEIR BEST SONG! KEEP!!!!
.
.
.
track 8213612: KEEP!
*puts band on replay*
Example: anything by fall out boy, the cab, motion city soundtrack, fair, the national, TAI, AAR, thirteen senses, anberlin, muse, click 5 and more
Good song
1st play: mm sounds OK, keep
3rd play: I'm starting to like this
6th play: I like it!!! I have it all in my head
40th play: KILLED SONG
Example: Amsterdam by PBnJ, soul meets body by death cab for cutie. most of my songs are 'good songs'
Great song
1st play: God this is good
2nd play: This is REALLY good...
10th play: this is dope man, dope
50th play: KILLED SONG
Example: Many of my songs are 'great songs'. They tend to really affect my emotions. I learn their lyrics by heart. Anhedonia by The Graduate, Nantes by beirut, A bad dream by Keane, Hot Air Balloon by owl city, the cave by mumford and sons, walking on a dream by empire of the sun....
Bad song becomes awesome song
5th play: Um why did i keep this
9th play: It's actually quite good
25th play: OMGGGGGGGGGGGG WHY DIDNT I LIKE THIS EARLIER
70th play: DAYUM I STILLLL LOVE THIS
Example: Start a war by The National
The best song1st play: Fwahhhh I'm in love!!!!!
100th play: Fwaahhhh I'm in loveeee!!!!!
Example: Built to last by melee, hallelujah by the helio sequence, just let go by mae, the reason by whosebuttstank hoobastank...
Meep
The National is coming to Singapore
Is anybody going to see them?
I really want to go....
Photos
As promised. Not very interesting, because my life is boring.
I blame the fact that I am asian.
This is my
pikachu craze
Pikachu post-it
Bowie made a
GIGAPUDDI stamp, which I have been practically
coating my tutorials with.
Oh, ignore the answers, they are all wrong.
Janice and I bought 2
pencilboxes each.
It's fun to arrange them like this in class.
My room on the first night I moved in.
It's more decorated now.
My lava lamp! ^_^
Jireh doing the astro banner moon
Art club.
Banners' up!
Thursday, January 20
photos
In the next post. Lots of them.
Promise~
texting
lulu: reply this please.
me: wha..??
lulu: hello. reply again.
me: Reply what?! sorry if i'm dumb
lulu: reply again
me: are you doing this on purpose woman
lulu: reply:)
me: THIS IS THE LAST TIME. Do you have this amazing msg ringtone you want to hear over and over or what!!
lulu: LOL call me
I call lulu.
lulu: HOW DID YOU KNOW?!!!!
Coz best friends think alike.
charlie teh unicron
episode 1: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=R5Nz8p3EP7A
episode 2: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NRHrImhFnZY
LOL SO LAME
I LOVES IT
"You shut the hell up!!!!!!!!"
"No yooooou shut the hell up!!!!!"
"That was uncalled for"
"Your face is uncalled for!!!!"
^ I totally love this smiley
Pirates of the Caribbean 4
HOREEEEY SHAYTTTTTTEEE
Pirates of the caribbean: On stranger tides has ZOMBIES and MERMAIDS
I cannot wait V(^^V)
bleh
I must say that contact lenses made it easier for me to cut my own hair. Basically, hair is more manageable. It is also easier to slam my head on my desk and fall straight asleep. I'm starting to get used to the torture that is called contact lenses. Maybe I'll stick to it. No time to make glasses, seriously. I'm really picky about them.
No time to do brows outside.
No choice, do own brows also. Which is like, super fail.
:(
Maybe busy is bad. True, I haven't been bored for many years. Always trying to be productive. Improve things. But I want a break.
mom
On my mother's birthday, I did what I promised myself to do. I called her and told her I loved her. She said thanks for remembering, she said she was worried for my safety and did not ask me where I was residing. Complained for half an hour about how my dad is a shitty dad ("Your father didn't have proper parents xxxxx" "Your father never give me a single cent" (bullshit)) and how my brother is a shitty student and I listened. It ended well. I assured her I had everything in place and that I'm doing fine and I just want to finish my exams.
It was good. I wanted to give her the security I never gave. I said "I love you" for the first time. I did my best. I got so sad. The family was screwed and she had no idea she was the main catalyst. And it is not her fault because she isn't sound.
Two days later my grandfather told her that I invited my uncle to our old home and took photos. The latter being untrue. Yes, my uncle did go into the disaster of a house when he fetched my brother home. But we took no photos.
Photos, I have. But I did not take any that day. That day being two months ago.
Soooooo she called me on the phone and bombarded me with insults. We had the same old arguments. Her flawed logic and her refusal to believe there was something wrong with the way she was doing things. I am way too tired to describe the conversation in detail.
Basically, I'm a 'heartless child' who doesn't help her mother with a disorder pack up her house, wash clothes, renovate houses. (?) I'm also a 'killer' and I'm 'going to murder somebody one day'. (?) Blah, blah, blah. I'm a 'backstabber' because I told adults about my situation, because I sought help from people outside my family. Because I didn't personally try to deal with it, with
her, the person who refused to admit she screwed up. She did not believe she drove me to this. She said I should see a psychiatrist. And she will "change if you give (me) $50000". (?) That I should prove that I'm a normal child by "spending $0 a month". (?) That everything is my fault.
If you don't understand anything, don't worry. It's not meant to be understood. Because all her arguments are flawed. Her logic is flawed. You can't even argue back because it is so flawed you are unable to point it out in words. You're just.. rendered speechless.
I am frustrated to tears. I tried to make things right on her birthday. It only lasted for a day. Something had to happen. I cannot talk sense into her. Because she isn't mentally stable. I have adults, my school and her siblings helping me, on my side, but we can't do anything. They can only help me run away. It's so fucked up. Haiz. I know I shouldn't be complaining. I'm going to tell myself to move on and accept what I cannot change. Because life is too short to be unhappy. I'm not going to be unhappy. I'm not going to be unhappy. I'm not going to be unhappy.
So... that's all I'm going to rant. Time to shush and chillax to music. Coldplay!
driving
Uh huh so I was saying I wanted my license real bad.
But truth is, I'm an insanely terrible driver. I always get bored and start daydreaming when I'm on the road. But yeah, I can still handle a car and drive you a few kilos if there ever is an emergency.
Anywaiz..
I didn't want it so bad. At least not by
this tuesday.
Instructor calls.
Instructor: Eh, xinni ah?
Me: yeah?
Instructor: Your driving test, u know when or not?
Me: uh no, you haven't signed me up right?
Instructor: Your driving test is on the
25th Jan u know or not?
Me:
WHUT!?!?!??! THAT IS THIS
TUESDAY!?!??!?!?!??!?!?!!?!?!?!?!?
.....wts right!!!!
Instructor: Ya.
Me: YOU DID NOT TELL ME THIS!
Instructor: So can or not? This tuesday morning you go take ah?
Me: butbtubtubtuwaitomgiamnotreadyicantevenparkrelyproperly isuckatdriving youcantmakemedothis thatslkessthanaweek SCHOOL EXAMS LESSONS HOMEWORK fjdhgsjd fehwgfvjhwerbgjhevbgfrejkhgfjdbvfd
Instructor: hah?
Me: How much will it cost on that day. To rent the car for driving.
Instructor: $260.
Me: I'll take it another time.
Yeah, so I'm postponing my driving test. I'm postponing my SAT too. Wow I've really been throwing a lot of money away to these agencies. I'm sorry dad. That I couldn't prepare myself in time. Haiz.
BUT REALLY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
HOW WILL YOU FEEL IF YOU HAVE A PRACTICAL TEST IN ONE WEEK WHEN YOU BARELY HAD 15 DRIVING LESSONS?!!!! THAT YOU SECRETLY KNOW YOU CMI?! not farny u no?!?!!!
Oh man oh man. Imma try to get it by June though. I hope I fail less than 3 times.
m(T.T m)
butterfly blood
I saw a dead butterfly on the ground. It was a pretty butterfly.
I scooped it up with my GP notes and went to bury it in the bushes.
I suspect someone had already stepped on it because its blood stuck onto my notes and it took a few shakes for it to drop onto the soil. By then my notes had greenish butterfly blood at the sides. I couldn't clean it off. Luckily it's on some essay about foreign aid which I'll never read.
Yeah um. I bury dead butterflies. They look too dignified to die on the floor. I would hate it if someone stepped on a dead butterfly.
I don't bury cockroaches or beetles or worms. Erps. A bit bias hor.... OK fine!!!!!!!! I judge insects based on their looks!!!!! They don't have personality right..... I also cannot go around burying every bug I see lor..... So it's just butterflies for now.
And snails. They are so stupid they need to be rolled into hiding so that people don't crush them to death.
._.
Labels: family
Monday, January 17
y u do dis
I hate tuesdays. Here's the timetable:
PE, Econs, Chemistry, Math, GP, Computing
ALL MY EXAMINABLE SUBJECTS PLUS
PE?!!!
Y U DO DIS?!?!? U WAN KIL ME?!!! ahsfdhasjdjha
During PE, the teacher went up to me and extended a hand to me.
She said "I HOPE TO SEE YOU ATTENDING MORE OF MY LESSONS THIS YEAR!"
..
I shook her hand.
She looked at me awkwardly and made a meek attempt to shake it back.
I said "Why did I shake your hand...."
Then it was all really weird and awkwardddddd.
.....
During computing, my computing teacher went up to me and said "I HOPE YOU WILL WORK HARD THIS YEAR. YOU MUST WORK HARD! YOUR LAST YEAR."
Later I was doing some Object-Oriented Program questions and she was like *applause* *applause* "CONTINUE! GOOD!" every time I got a question right.
I don't know if i should feel happy or insulted.
The question is, why just me?
And why are teachers and students always going to my friend to get me to do work?
Walau. I don't want to trouble her anymore.
COME TO ME YOURSELF DAMN IT
Bleh.
I will be a good student!
school.
Could this be a gift from God? I got what I wished for this year. To room with one of my bestest friends. We got assigned to the same room, and she is going to a good school. I couldn't ask for more.
School isn't so bad. I hate waking up early.
No one is hatin' on me much. Or at least I don't notice. I'm constantly pissing people off, that I know. I also tend to think everybody who isn't a friend hates me. I...
Well. Haters gonna hate!!!
Actually, I think they don't care anymore. Hahahah. I'm disappearing. Yes!!!
GOODBYE WORLD
Things I can no longer find time to do:
Watch dramas
Read manga
Go out with friends, especially those who have graduated and have tons of free time (I feel left out)
Shop (I still do it anyway lol)
Design
DRAW....
Troll
School is suffocating me. I want to make 2011 right, really I do. I don't want to be eating my daddy's money. I want to be productive.
Discipline, woman! Discipline.
math test
Oh! I passed my first math test. I got a DOUBLE DIGIT SCORE! Horay!!!!! *popping champagne* I mean seriously that's uber cool. I told my dad and this is how he praised me!!!
Me: Hello papa? You know the math lecture test?
Daddy: What latter tax?
Me: Lecture test, man! Lecture test.
Daddy: What letter text? Wat toking u?!
Me: LECTUREEEEE TESTTT. I passed it leh!!!!!!
Daddy: You pass what letter text!?
.......
(**$@^#*^#.......)
Me: WTF, LECTURE TEST. I passed it ok. TEST. TEST.
Daddy: Test. Oh. Again? OK.
Me: (
thinks: What the heck, its my first) ....I PASSED LEH. OMIGOD RIGHT?!!!!
Daddy: Huh?
Me: OMG RIGHT?!
Daddy: Ya.
WHAT.
THE.
MEOW?!?!??!?!?!??!?!!
I
fail, my dad says 'huh?' or 'OK'.
I
pass, my dad says 'huh?' or 'OK'.
*angery(*
art club
The new juniors kinda scare me. There's this girl who probably hates me because I was an ass to everyone back then. Then there's a boy who refused to let me see his sketchbook (I was trying to be a nice senior because he was looking kinda lost holding a sketchbook but i guess it backfired. I won't try approaching juniors
ever again. Rejection is something that hits me really hard..)
I guess I'll just be myself. That is.. sit in a corner and do my own thing~ Help if they need it. The juniors will be fine by themselves, actually.
*shrug* I was never good with people. Especially them young'uns.
Let's just draw lotsa nice stuff.
mameshiba+puddi
OMG WHAT AM I DOING ONLINE SHOPPING FOR
TALKING
PUDDINGS
AND
TALKING
PEA DOGS (ie mameshiba)
They were so expensive!!!
WTF I'M SCREWED I HAVE SATs IN A FEW DAYSSSsss
new clothessss
Decided to abandon work for a day, went to ion and bought clothes with K and abby~
New leggings. Yay!
And a rabbit shirt.
I love uniqlo~!
I bought those plain tops that go with anything.
Shorts, leggings, jeans, mini skirts...
I'm trying to wear stuff other than just t-shirts and shorts.
Girly friends of mine are beginning to get to me. Got to shop online for clothes soon.
CLOTHES @@;;;
new links!
Yuppppp I added new links at the left hand side. Those are sites I visit a lot, so check them out if you're bored.
HAHHAA:
Labels: school
Monday, January 10
Hullo, I'm sick. I am also busy. So this post will suck.
Happy puddi new year
Alright, so this is a terribly long update. It's boring too. Life
is dreary.
2010 has been an emotional roller coaster. Things are different now. I am different now.
I will improve.
I'm okay, I'm okay.
Right.
So, happy new year!
I must thank God for blessing me with a NEW YEAR PIMPLE!!!
Oh what a downer ~*THANK YOU!!*~ I just know it's a gift from above because no pimples are supposed to visit me now. Probably some rare breed of pimple from Alaska who flew here just to land on my face.
*sigh*
wtf
So somehow an online friend of mine managed to sign me into this Ace Attorney cosplay group and so I'm going to be Maya Fey!! WTF THIS IS GAY
You don't know how uneasy this is making me because it's like I'm breaking my moral code. I never liked cosplays and I hate photos. Being a bad person I always laughed at people who tried to be anime characters but failed to look like them.
But Ace Attorney is special. I really, really like the game. I'm willing to make a fool of myself, let people laugh at me for being a fail Maya. Just this once. It'd be nice to be with a community of people who share the love for this absolutely wonderful game. NO THIS IS GAY
/hides
I'm just going to pretend I'm not me on that day and avoid anybody I know. Yepp.
Not sure. I may back out if someone else wants my spot, because I'm too gafshagfjhvbhwve to cosplay and they can afford to get a better looking Maya Fey.
ARFG WTF COSPLAY WTFWTFWTF
GAYYYYYYYY
No it's no big deal musho, no big-
ARGHHHH WTFFFFFF
*mindblown*
Nooooooo
ooooooooooooooo
Yeah so
I woke up and got a text from my brother that my mom stole from a shop again. Uniforms it was, this time. And then later I was in my daddy's car I asked him 'Why?' and he was like 'dunno'. As much as I hope my brother would say "No mum, I'm not wearing something you stole, go put it back" it's just not gonna happen.
Apparently he knows I used to steal too. I thought my teachers kept my thefts secret from my parents. Because, when I was eight, my parents never told me they knew I was stealing. They never scolded me or stopped me. Maybe they didn't know how to tell me it was wrong, since I learnt it from mummy. Strange, isn't it... /eyeroll
I guess as you get older you start to find out what's wrong and what's right.
It's such a chore.
...
I wanna try telling my mom I love her on her birthday. It's in one week. I never told her I loved her, not even once in my life. It could change things. I guess, yeah, I love her. She's my mom after all, right.
Dayum, not sure how I can do it. Call her? "
Happy birthday mum, I love you"? I haven't talked to her for almost a year now. Meh, the future freaks me out.
I'm in boarding school
So I packed my stuff, moved out, went shopping for household needs, went for a driving lesson, moved in, unpacked, organized and decorated my room in one day. In less than twenty four hours I was in a completely new, fully decorated home.
/proud
Productive days like that are stressful. But work numbs me. It's good to be busy.
And the best thing is...
ONE OF MY BEST FRIENDS IS ROOMING WITH ME!!!!!!!
FOR A YEAR!!!
She got excellent results and is going to the JC of her choice!
I just watched Gossip Girl with her on my bed!! ^^
And this means we can walk around the room in underwear!!!
Pics to be uploaded 4.7billion years later!!
bananas
I decided that I shall have one banana for breakfast every morning!
So I
hung a bunch of bananas at my desk.
I simply love to stare at the bunch of bananas gently ~twirling~ about the string I hung it on.
It looks gorgeous next to my blue lava lamp.
I feel so
at peace when I look at my twirling bananas and lava lamp next to each other.
Don't.
Walked into the boarding school office and then this lady came up to me and demanded to know why I wasn't present at the Newcomers meeting.
I said I didn't know of said meeting and she kept repeating this:
"We can't let you stay here if you're like that."
Despite my trying to explain to her that
1. the meeting
took place barely after I moved in,
2. I heard of no such meeting
3. I was having a
driving lesson that night, too. I couldn't make it if I wanted to, yo. I was out.
...she kept repeating it. It didn't feel particularly good. Rather unkind of her, actually.
The thing is, she knows. She knows about me. She knows this is the only place I can stay. Okay, I don't know about you, but I don't think it's really nice to threaten a kid with no where else to go with
expulsion because of something like that.
Do you actually think I want to stay in boarding school? Is it my fault that I'm here? Was I the one causing trouble in the first place? Are you venting your anger on me because of what my mom did or...?
Don't do this to me, okay? Don't pull this
'We'll expel you' card on me. Not now. I don't think I deserve it yet. I've kept to all the rules and all my curfews.
Don't.
Spectacles
My specs broke after a month.
I feel upset. They were perfect... pink on the inside!
Now I'm just going to have to bear with contact lenses until I find another pair of glasses. I hate contact lenses.
PAIN......
driving update
I can park parallel and vertically, do the pole ram thing, u-turn and almost everything! I think everything! I just kinda suck at driving on the real roads. Like I don't check blind spots and I panic at junctions.
Butbut.
I. Just. Want. My. License!!!!!!!!
/impatient
music update
Radiohead and
Tommy Sparks. Love!
Elbow makes rock music sound absolutely beautiful.
.....And
Ra Ra Riot! MCR! Thirteen Senses! The Rasmus! The Helio Sequence! Belle and Sebastian! Coldplay! Dear and the headlights....
Music is like my friend who's always there.
I don't know what to do without you.
Much too much to listen to!!!!
first day of school
I had a fever the night before the first day of school, tried to sleep at 9pm but ended up lying in bed for 6 hours trying to sleep because I am just that screwed. Slept at 3am. Anyway, went to school feeling really tired but the morning flagraising totally cheered me up!
1. They display the new seventh graders in front of all of us during flagraising. They're supposed to wear shorts, but this combobreaker wore long pants! He bought the senior uniform WTF! It was so funny!! Combobreaker!!
2. The national anthem was played totally out of tune. I doubled over laughing during the anthem..... and Jubbie laughed till she cried.
3. The pledgetaker was totally HILARIOUS he spoke in this damn low voice and for some reason had to pause for 1 second between every word HAHAHHAHA everybody was giggling at him.
And then we had lessons and a test and a lab session and everything was busy.
Afterwards
WE HUNG THE
CCA BANNERS
I DESIGNED
SIDE BY SIDE!!!!!
artclub + astroclub!
And then jubbie and I blew bubbles down the building as we stood beside the banners ^^
It was beautiful!
I'm so proud!!!!
Pictures will be added 4.7billion years later!!
(i'm sorry)
Now that school's started
Do not:
1. Ask me how much I got for a test. I'm not clever. My grades suck. I'm bottom rank. Chances are, I probably did worse than you, so please don't use me to feel better about yourself. Go find someone of a higher class to compare grades with.
I'll tell you if I want you to know.
2. Tell me you did well for this test even though you didn't study. Or that you did blah and you got everything correct. I didn't ask. I rarely compliment people. You need to tell this to somebody else.
Schoolwork is something I'd rather not talk about because doing badly depresses me but it's something I can't fix. So please.
I'M BUSY!!!
I'm getting busy!!!! :((
Stare at the dot for 30 seconds and the orange spot turns purple
....
....
AND I JUST FELL FOR THIS!!!!!
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