Sunday, August 28
:( i am a sad
I'm banking on someone selling cat 1 tickets at the last minute.
What if I don't get to see them?
I am so heartbroken.
I don't think I can concentrate on my studies if I know one of my favourite bands is playing somewhere else and I'm not there. I can't.
I really do love The National.
Someone please help me give up.
Idk why I'm having band problems! I should be having boy problems!!
But the only thing I love right now is music and Jonas Bjerre and meows.
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ALL TIME LOW IS COMING ON 6 OCTOBER!!!
Even though I rarely listen to pop punk now,
they're one of my earliest bands.
As much as I am disappoint in their latest album, I'm seeing them!
Heck yes. Totally stoked!
wtf.
Lol now I feel embarrassed for liking them.
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I know I said this one too many times!
But if
Mew comes to Singapore, I'll get a heart attack and die.
I'll murder for front row seats.
last day of school
kinda.
No more lessons. I'm relieved.
I don't have to see my class anymore.
It wasn't like I was outwardly bullied.
But I always felt suffocated and insecure around them. ;_;
I'm relieved.
Because I am uninspired and boring, here's a photo spam I ripped from facebook.
ily both ♥
true happyness!!!
Friends forever.
I mean it. I'm 100% sure we'll attend each others' weddings.
My lovely roomy ily!!
OMG please rate my hipsterness!!!
Sunday, August 14
JUMPING JEHOSAPHATS
FUCK MY LIFE FUCK FUCK FUCK WAT DA FUKC
The National tickets went on sale
two days ago!!!
THEY SAID SEPTEMBER!! FUCK!
I wanted the front row so bad!!!
GOD NO
/bursts into tears
F
M
L!!!!!
TWO DOOR CINEMA CLUB
.... was
amazinggggg.
NOTHING!!!!1
I mean seriously I had them on repeat for hours after that!!!
I went with lulu!!
When we were walking to the concert hall we played '
SPOT THE HIPSTER'. We saw suspenders, hipster glasses, TRIANGLES. I felt terribly underdressed because I was in my school shirt and shorts and was carrying a primary school backpack :(
But I'm glad I didn't dress up or put on makeup because I
screamed like a crazy bitch and
jumped 2983743982 tiems! I think I'm still a very awkward fan because sometimes I feel awkward jumping throughout the song. But when they came out I was
SO EXCITED!!! omgfuckmeandletmedieokasdhajfdsf~*~
They played
Cigarettes in the Theatre, Undercover Martyn, Something good can work, Costume Party, Kids, This is the life, You're Not Stubborn, Come Back Home, and some new songs. The most epic part of the concert was when they played
WHAT YOU KNOW. I almost cried because I was waiting for it the whole time it's my absolute favourite!!! ;_; omg. And I was pretty proud being one of the few who knew
Costume Party and
Kids! :D
THE BEST THING WAS THAT THEY HAD A
POST AUTOGRAPH SESSION.
Unlike switchfoot. We queued for almost an hour!!!
And there was this chick behind us who said "
Do you think I can hug alex? I want to hug alex."
And we both looked at each other and said
'Who the fuck is alex?'
And that's when we realized we didn't know shit about the band members' names.
I never thought to find out because I was calling them
Ron, Harry and Neville all my life :(
OK SO THEIR NAMES ARE SAM, KEVIN AND ALEX.
Not Neville, Harry and Ron.
Lol we suck!!!
AND HERE ARE OUR AUTOGRAPHS!!
My hair is messy after concert @@
me: what's the last guy's name? it says 'gay' on his autograph.
lulu: really? mine's says 'sexy'.
We r so happy.
Now here comes the biggest regret of my life.
I didn't hug alex.
I didn't hug alex.
I didn't hug alex.
OH GOD NO WHY AM I SUCH A PUSSY T.T
EVERYBODY BEFORE ME HUGGED HIM SO
WHY COULDN'T I
WHY. /bursts into tears again
WHY AM I SUCH AN AWKWARD FUCKING PENGUIN
Now they are gone!!!!
I swear I will hug all of them when they come back.
Oh shizzle I love them so much now and I can't stop thinking about them!!!
I am very happy.
Music is the best thing that ever happened to me.
class
In a few weeks
(no I am not going to sing TDCC's 'What You Know')
There will be no more class.
Though I can't wait to get out of their faces,
there are two or three people whom
I really like, and they have been nothing but wonderful to me.
But I don't think we're going to hang out after that.
I'm not one to approach people anyway.
It makes me so sad. I want to cry.
I want to hug all of them before they go.
6 billion secrets
http://www.sixbillionsecrets.com
Is it just me, or is every girl on this website getting raped?!
I felt sad when I read the first few secrets, but it got really repetitive after a few pages.
My prom date raped me on prom night.
For many months I've been lying to myself by acting like nothing was wrong.
I talked to him yesterday and found out that he thinks he did nothing wrong.
Men like him disgust me.
I was raped at age eight.
Now I'm afraid of guys. My friend knew this.
Today her guy friends were all over me, smelling my hair and touching me, and she did nothing.
She said, she thought it was cute.
Those screams were real. I wasn't exaggerating.
I'm heartbroken, why did she let that happen?
When I was about seven I went inside to get a drink when I was at my auntys.
My uncle was inside, and he took me upstairs.
Telling me we would play a game.
My uncle took of all my clothes, and molested me.
I lost my virginity when I was 7.
To my own uncle.
The hardest part about the rape was how I reacted.
I should've screamed. I didn't.
You did it four times.
Now I have an STD forever because of my stupidity.
I blame myself.
Sunday, August 7
emo corner
You know how people like to blog about third parties without mentioning their names? Or make status updates bitching about them? I always try not to do it. The idea is very tempting though. So I'll allow myself one
tiny section of this blog post to say it all to different people.
1. I sensed that something changed a long time ago. Clearly we do not trust each other. (Not that I trust anybody completely, but I feel like I cannot tell you anything anymore.) I think you secretly dislike me. I wish we could trust each other.
2. I never knew you'd turn out like this and I feel that as a friend I should be doing something to help you. But I can't because I'm out of time. I've also become too reliant on you making the first move. I'm a lousy friend.
3. I miss you very much and I want to meet up with you to show you that I have changed and I'm not such a mess anymore. But you've moved on. At one point in time I kept dreaming about you. (in a non creepy manner) I'm so sorry for not doing my best to treat you well last year. But I was so depressed...! I can't ask you out because I don't think you wanna, and we are so different anyway.
Whew. There's a load off my chest.
Interesting fact: All of them read this blog regularly at some point in time.
NAO I FEEL SOo ~*MYSTERIOZ*~ AND BROODY!!!! ^o^
I'm still sick
I don't know what's worse,
being so sick that I can't get up to see the doctor on my own,
or having to wait until 6pm for the boarding school to serve my first meal.
I hate living without a family.
art club
:] They had a senior's farewell partay!
They gave me chocolate! We had ice cream!
I love my juniors!
(It is very easy to bribe me actually)
And we played broken picture telephone again.
It was the least funny session but Grace and I had fun mocking some drawings.
I know that's mean but there was this one time, someone had to draw pikachu and she
did not know who pikachu was. So she drew some weirdass cat with random hair sticking out of its bottom. It looked like a testicle and we couldn't stop laughing at Testicat.
I think it's very sad if you are 18 and you don't know who Pikachu is.
y u think i'm cat ballz?!!
Meh. I haven't drawn anything decent for a long time.
results
Okay... they were unexpected.
I did better in the subjects I thought I would fail.
I flunked the subjects I thought I'd do better in.
GP - Wow the essay totally describes my life!!
/writes about my internet life
Result: bottom 9%.
Econs - Wow this is pretty manageable!
/writes stuff I studied the day before
Result: shit, but i deserved it, i guess
Chem - WHY DID I SCREW IT UP SO BADLY
Result: OK. Still 6th in class -.-
(honestly, I am ashamed for not doing better.
I spent the most time on this subject.)
Computing - This was the suckiest paper ever!!!! First, I failed to touch it for the whole holiday because I didn't know how to study it. Then you also know that computing is the boringest subject so I fell asleep with half the material left unstudied. I woke up, saw the time, and I was like, FUCK!!! NO!!!!! and desperately tried to cram everything into my marshmallow of a brain.
During the test, I realised the stuff I studied the night before was worth 4 marks only (!!). And then the coding section (my coding is really shitty) was so bad I thought it was going to be my first 'U' grade for Computing. I was also the earliest to finish because I didn't know what to write for the program. I just stared at everybody scribbling furiously and kept muttering 'you're screwed, bb' under my breath.
Result: A. 3rd in class.
WAT??!?!!1
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HAO KEN DIS HAPPEN???
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My honest feelings:
I managed to bring all my sciences to a decent % above average. Which makes me feel slightly comforted because my sciences were so AHSFAFHADFGAD last year. People are starting to ask me how to do questions again.
I still feel very unsure about my abilities. I think I'm still lousy. I am scared of screwing up when someone asks me how to do something and then they'll think I'm stupid. I really do want to help people but I think I'll just teach them the wrong thing. So most of the time when people come over with a question, I say "
Noooo I dunno how to do it!!" But I do want to help. I really do. I'm just terrified of being wrong.
And GP? Honestly? I
hate it. Ever since I entered J2, my grades just went all the way down. Which is stupid because .... I don't think you can de-prove for GP. You hardly learn anything. I knew my GP wasn't good, but I can't believe I did that badly. What can I do? It's not science.
Econs... not much to say. I don't know how the fuck it works. I passed, at least. Still, pass means nothing in J2.
I cannot do Arts. Confirm plus chop. I was born a Science person.
tumblr
There are only two things I do on my iPod:
Tumblr and Tiny Tower.
Dani Shay is a girl who looks like biebs.
Ffffuu I thought they were the same peoples!!
I'm okay with any house I'm sorted into.
Gryffindor: I’m a fucking hero.
Slytherin: I’m fucking
badass.
Ravenclaw: I’m smart as fuck.
Hufflepuff: My dorm is near the kitchen.
Meow:
Ugh how can you eat these:
...her face..
Okay guys just... follow me or something because I don't want to turn my blog into my tumblr D:
Oh! I stumbled upon this pencil eyeliner that doesn't smudge at all which is awesome!! It's called DEJAVU eyeliner and you can buy it at Sasa. A good alternative is the Revlon Colorstay (which I use.)
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