Wednesday, November 30
fugg yeah
A levels are over!
Honestly idk I'm not that elated. Same reason as always. I started celebrating a pretty long time ago. Heh.
I'm sorry if my blog has been boring as of late. Right, I
know it has been boring. I only talk about concerts and grades. Last time, pageview count really mattered to me because half my life was the Internet, but now it doesn't matter anymore. I write what I want to write.
A levels
I don't know what I'll get, but I can only hope that I will be happy with it. I did what I could to salvage my grades.
GP
Remember what I said about
hating GP?
It was because I was bottom 9%.
But during prelims, my comprehension paper score doubled.
So I climbed up to 66 percentile even though I still failed the essay.
If you think GP can't be studied, think again!
You definitely can't study it as much as science, but you should do about 3-4 practice papers. Skip the AQ. It's not too hard, just 1 hour each. It'll only take you one day. I did that and my score fucking doubled!
Anyway, just don't give up. GP is really hit and miss.
Something really touched me. My room mate was googling my name (idk the fuck why) but she found my GP teacher's blog. He blogged about me!
I'll miss him... what a nice guy.
I hope I don't disappoint him.
:(
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Computing
Apart from this, my computing paper really scared me. I finished them both 1 hour early. For Paper 2, I submitted my script and left the exam room early. Then I met Ms Goh, my computing teacher, in her car! I showed her my paper and we started discussing answers which felt so wrong because my classmates were still in the room taking the exam. So wrong ok!!! She took my paper away coz she wanted to scan it.
I think this is the first time a teacher got her hands on a paper before it ended. God.
Worries me because WHAT IF MY ANSWERS WERE DAMN LACKING THEN HOW.
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Econs: I HATE YOU.
DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE I'M SO HAPPY YOU'RE OUT OF MY LIFE
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Math: I'll miss you so bad and we'll meet again and i can masturbate to math equations once again because you know i am asian
...scratch that ew
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Chem: luv ya. luv science.
plans
So now that exams are over, I'm making myself busy again.
1. I need to get a decent SAT score.
2. I'm getting chased out of boarding school. I must find somewhere to stay and move out.
3. I need to help my daddy clear my mother's houses.
4. I need to rape my copics all over again and make beautiful art =D
5. Continue with the business I have with jubbie and make more pretty things!
6. BAKE OREO FILLED CHOCOLATE COOKIE and learn to cook.
7. Create a program, iPhone game or something cool and techy.
8. Volunteer at the animal shelter. (WHY IS IT IN EFFING PASIR RIS)
9. Dye my hair. Get braces.
10. Sleep around. I mean, at group sleepovers. No, not mass orgy. Ok the more i try to explain it the wrongererer it sounds. But yes, stayover at friends' houses and run movie marathons.
11. Watch a fuckload of sitcoms and shows. Hell yeah. Play Portal. Read Eragon.
12. Practise lots of guitar.
13. Do sports maybe. Cycle? Skate? Surf the internet?
14. GO OVERSEAS WITH MY GURLFRANS
.....
There's like 10 more but I don't think anyone would want to read
AAAAND this is why I'm never bored.
Never ending list of things I want to do, or learn, or try out, or explore.
Busy, busy, busy.
Thursday, November 10
Love my life :D
Why is everybody so stressed?
I've never been so happy this year. Taking the A levels is so relieving.
I am very happy :)
Half the time I'm thinking of The National because their concert was amazing. I cried during their third song. We were right in front of the stage - 1m away from the guitarist (Aaron?) and very near Matt :') So beautiful.
So emotional.
We were this close!
(So close I don't have any proper pictures of the whole band heh)
BE JEALOUS AND WEEP.
Money can buy concerts.
That's why money can buy happiness.
Heh I think my best friend looks so adorable here la.
Can't stop thinking about them can't stop listening to them!!!!!
I NEED TO MASTER THE GUITAR SO THAT I CAN PLAY THEIR SONGS.
I got my case study mock paper results back for Economics - I got a B.
A for the micro paper and C for the macro paper. I didn't prep for it and got a B - I feel that I have a little hope. :)
Okay math paper 2 tomorrow and I haven't finished four chapters of stats yet - so ta! :D
Tuesday, November 1
I was doing fine for A level studying. Quite okay, no depression, lots of worrying, but I think today everything finally came crashing. Because of what someone said and it really affected me.
Right so all my grades are above average except for Economics. I've always been doing fine not studying it and this one time I decide to study for it and my grades drop. It was horrible for me.
So what the teacher said was:
If you find that you're sacrificing too much for your economics, you must strategize. A levels, just get C for econs.
just get C for econs.
just get C for econs.
just get C for econs.
I was very shocked.
And then I broke down and cried after a few hours.
Actually... lol. Suddenly it sounds so stupid now lol.
I think bottling up everything is no good for me.
I don't know if he meant it. It shocked me because my predicted grade is B and I was consulting him because I obviously wanted something better than that. For him to tell me to "just get C", well, it makes me think that my grasp of the subject is super weak. I mean ok, maybe he's trying to scare me. Maybe he doesn't know my ability because I just saw him for the first time and he hasn't actually seen my work yet. Or maybe I'll get a C. I don't want to get a C.
Also, why am I like this? Do I have the right to be insulted at a 'C' grade? Why am I like this? Can I blame this school and this country for doing this to me? Why do I see myself thinking of suicide if I ever get a C in my results slip? Idk. IDK. Since when did I let myself degenerate into this.... Hwachong student. Ugh help help ugh. Why iz I so emotional. I know I'm being stupid and irrational, but I can't get over it.
Okay, I'll probably get over it soon. I'm a rational and sane person. Yes.
On the bright side :D The National tickets.!
EDIT: I'm fine now :D
For the past two days I was crying non stop. Went to the toilet twice in school to cry, cried in the shower and at home and was totally emo and stupid. IDK WHY I HAVE EMO STUPID TIMES LIKE THIS MUST BE MY UTERUS ACTING UP BUT HELL IT'S OVER. It's over because my friends were there for me and some even sent me long encouraging texts and calls. I cried one last time this morning. Stressing over something that hasn't happened isn't worth it. I effectively wasted two days of precious study days being depressed.
Now I'm pretty relaxed. I'm reading interesting articles for, um, GP. I really hope I can put my heightened knowledge about the relationships and sex lives of celebrities in my essays. I hope I can.
Check this out. Father and two brothers killed a girl in Iraq then walk away scot free. I always tell people I'm not a feminist because of all the bad stereotypes but okay THIS IS JUST HORRIBLE. WOMEN ARE TREATED LIKE DIRT OVER THERE. JKAHSJKADHADHJAKFAG @#&;*^@$*!.
So two days wasted because stress made me depressed. Now I'm wasting another day reading up on useless things. At least I'm happy.
Moar things to be happy about!
1) THE COMIC BOOK I COMPILED JUST GOT
PUBLISHED. ajsdshjafgjasdjka
2) I GOT LOTS OF FOREIGN CANDY FROM
TRICK OR TREATING THIS HALLOWEEN (: Will blog about it in more detail latergater
3) Miraculously got hands on
TWO CATEGORY ONE ROW E The National TICKETS. Thanks to my bff of course:D Idgaf that it's right before A levels because IT'S THE NAT OMG. Stoked!!!! /desperate fangirl scream
Must go study their songs now ok
4) My conduct is surprisingly '
excellent' despite having close to 30 demerit points. If this is true, I
may be getting the Hwa Chong Diploma - something i thought was unattainable at the start of this year, especially after all the shit I went through last year.
tumblr
My tumblr is more active than this page!
But yeah, here's something I find highly accurate:
GOD HELP ME I CANNOT STOP LAUGHING
SNAKE'S FACE. SNAKE'S. FACE.
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