I am Musho / Xinni and I am an artist, designer and programmer. I'm a Singaporean living in California as a designer at Google. I blog about my
art, music, shows, games, beauty stuff, school and a lot of personal events in my life. You will feel awkward reading this if you know me.
Sushi introduced to me this new program called IllustStudio so I doodled her :3
But my computer was too slow to colour it on that program so in the end I used SAI to colour it.
1 hour+ completion time!!
It is a decent art program-
Download IllustStudio here.
natural harvest
Okay so eddy was telling me about this image he came across on 4chan that featured a guy frying his own semen and serving it to somebody on a sandwich.
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BUT WHY
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OK anyway. Beefy helped me to source it out and here it is. I made it super tiny because it is highly disturbing so if you want to view the whole thing you should right click and view image.
Beefy also linked me to a .pdf version of a book called 'Natural Harvest'.
It's a collection of semen-based recipes - here.
I don't know why I'm blogging about this.
I'm really grossed out :(
famous amos
People in my country are pissed off at this Singaporean child actor Amos Yee because he insulted Chinese New Year. I was revolted by his youtube video. Like he was trying to be nigahiga and failed. And not only that, he was sucking america's dick and putting down the chinese in the name of 'satire'. When I was watching it I kept thinking wow this kid is never going to get laid.
"We already have a new year so why do we have Chinese New Year? It's like somebody from China said, 'Hey America has a new year and we don't have one. Oh let's quickly copy that idea and then make it a festive season for us'. After all we've been copying America for food, cars, machines and other stuff so, no harm doing it here… And we'll make the most creative name for the copy of the New Year; we'll call it Chinese New Year."
Anyway he took down that video but here's another one of his videos and I have no idea what it's about but you can witness his brattiness first hand from here
Huisuan and I told lulu about it and she was really angry.
lulu: I'm going to tear him a new vagina and stuff a bread stick inside it! I'll rip his testicles off and make soup out of them! I want to squash him into a yellow chinese pancake!
He didn't regret the video. He said: “The video was great, intelligent and crafted well. I think that racially-sensitive people might be a little offended but the video was not an insult to Chinese; more of an intelligent joke of the festival. But I think most people are angry because of how different it is to Singaporean culture: the Americanised speech, a young person doing something prominent other than getting fantastic results, and the exquisite genre of comedy.”
/fazepralm
nice guys
This article on yahoo was on nice guys.
5 Reasons Women Don't like Nice Guys
We've all heard about the Nice Guy thing. Women, according to popular myth, don't like 'em. Is it true? Do women actually prefer Bad Boys to Nice Guys? Sort of.
That doesn't mean it's the right thing to do, though. Let's take a look at these reasons we too often avoid the Nice Guy and decide if it's really worth it to keep chasing the Bad Boys.
(Hint: it's not.)
1. It's hard for some of us to trust a Nice Guy. Not because they're not trustworthy -- in fact, it's quite the opposite. The more trustworthy a guy seems, the harder it may be for a woman to actually believe that they're as good as they seem. See, women get kind of jaded about the whole Nice Guy thing (after dating too many jerks), which means that it takes time for a woman to trust that a Nice Guy is, well, actually for reals.
Wait!!!
What the fuck!!!!!!!!!! So does this mean bad guys are easier to trust? That doesn't make sense. So a girl would rather go for a dude whom she knows will treat her like shit than try for the nice guy to see how it goes first?
2. Bad Boys care about themselves -- a lot -- and it makes us think they care about us. That's not a great thing in a relationship; however, it means that while the Nice Guy will bide his time, waiting for the right moment to ask a girl out, the Bad Boy will swoop in and tell her what he wants -- her. Not something that lends to real relationship material, but certainly makes it easier to decode what it is, exactly, he wants.
It's reasonable to assume that the more you value the girl, the more scared you are to lose her, so you wouldn't dare to make a move. That's one trait players possess and nice guys don't, I guess. Balls.
3. Nice Guys have their shit together. Bad Boys don't. Women like a challenge. A fixer-upper of a partner. While a Nice Guy has his bank accounts and steady job, a Bad Boy presents a challenge. And some women, well, they like a challenge.
That, unfortunately, happens. But I think it's stupid. I think people do it because they want to feel needed and they want to make a big change in somebody's life. But I don't really care for that. The more stable somebody is the better. Trying to change somebody is hard. It sucks to try and then fail.
4. Some women are afraid of intimacy. The one thing the Bad Boy rarely does is want to become intimate. If a woman is already gun-shy about commitment, she's met her mate in the Bad Boy who has no illusions of becoming marriage or long-term relationship material.
That doesn't mean women dislike nice guys. It means some of them don't want commitment. And they can have flings with other nice guys who want flings too. But those guys are admittedly rather hard to find. Most "nice guys" are prepared to commit. But this doesn't mean these girls should hook up with jerks.
5. Some women suffer low self-esteem. Women who don't feel very good about themselves may not be able to handle the Nice Guy that treats her well. The Bad Boy, however, may treat her in the way she treats herself -- badly.
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WAT.
Okay, anyway, about this whole 'women go for bad guys' thing, it's not because we want to be treated like shit.
When a girl is hurt, people just notice how jerky her boyfriend is and how nice the other guy is. People think we prefer bad guys because they see girls being hurt by bad guys, when they have nice guys to be with. Then they assume that we just want to fix people, that we want to be crapped on. But I don't think so. I think the most common reason for the above scenario is that the nice guy doesn't have traits she's looking for. Maybe he's dull. Maybe they don't share common interests. Maybe he's too much of a pussy to act on his feelings. But yeah, I really don't believe we choose the bad guys on purpose.
So to all the nice guys who whine about girls not paying attention to you *cough 9gag friendzone whiners cough*: If she doesn't like you, it's not because you're nice to her, okay. Find out why she doesn't like you. Find out what these jerks have that you don't have and work on it.
oh my god
photos!!
My new glasses :) First saw it at NEX and considered buying it. Went back the next day and it was sold out. Continued combing shops for these frames and finally found them... at the optician below my block of flats! :D
Whoo metal frames \o/
My shabby workspace which makes me feel un-arty :(
P.S. Oh oh oh is anyone playing Trickster/Iris/Recettear tag me!
P.P.S Also come to Scape sky terrace on 11 Feb, saturday! Will be there selling stuff with jubbie at the flea market (: More info at a later date.
Lately I haven't had much to do. Everybody's working or having school. I stay home, sleep eleven hours and watch Dexter.
And it depresses me. I can't figure out why. I don't know why I can't let myself go and be wasted. I deserve to waste my life away now after all the shit I had to endure the past decade (i.e. skewl)
Why do I feel the need to be productive when it's my breaktime!?
Honestly, I think if I start drawing and designing again, nobody's there to care anymore. Last time, I had deviantART and random classmates and Art Club. They may not have cared much about my work, but it was enough to keep me going. And they're gone. I can't start anything without support. Sigh.
I'll probably try to return to the DeviantART community by making some fanart and flash buttons. IF I CAN GET MY LAZY ASS TO DRAW. Also learn to use fiverr (It's a site that lets you do gigs (i.e. mini jobs) in return for $4. They keep one buck).
Meanwhile, hit me up if you'd like to commission me - website, banner, illustration - anything. Or if you know anybody who offers design internships. Or any art related opportunities. I need to do something. Grawr.
To do something like this again would be good.
On the bright side, just had a super productive day at Jubbie's making random clay things. They are adorable. We're trying to find an event/flea market where we can share a booth (and hence split costs) with someone else. If you're interested, please tag.
Adorbs!!
soo
I was pretty bored and decided to read my old posts in 2009 and 2010. I'm a thousand times less funny than before. Not to mention I update way less. Guh. Sowwy guise.
I read...
http://mushopea.blogspot.com/2009/09/irdk.html (see pizza)
http://mushopea.blogspot.com/2010/04/diplodocus.html (see pimple cream)
Posts like these made me laugh. I kinda miss my old self. But I'm also glad that she's gone.
From my photobucket, I dug up a really old picture of myself that I never showed anyone.
Oh god what is that thing on the right
kill it before it lays eggs!!1
Girl beside me is my ex-roommate whom i adore :D I missed the two years we spent together in the same room and all the crazy sex we had after them tiring study sessions. *licks lips* sighhhghghhh
2 years later
I'm turning 20 soon, but I still act like a kid ugh why
Ah, and here's manfriend fondling a random pussy.
So jealous :c
The concert was... pretty cool. It was bad at first because I couldn't see them at all and people were smoking and everybody was sweating. But I really enjoyed myself towards the end :D
This local band called The Auditory Effect opened for them. Something disturbing happened. The last song they played had chunks of it sounding exactly like Spotlight by Mute Math. Lulu and I thought they were playing a cover of Spotlight. I probably shouldn't accuse them of ripping off MM because I only heard their song once. I wish I could find the name of their song though. But other than that, TAE is a decent local band, instrumentals wise.
Torches - FTP's only album - was really good. I liked all their songs.
Except for one song - "Pumped up kicks".
According to this article, FTP became famous "thanks to their wildly popular signature tune, Pumped Up Kicks - a one-hit wonder"
Idk why because it sucks!
For decent FTP songs... try Houdini and Call It What You Want. And Helena Beat. But please no pumped up kicks. Bleh.
Ugh why can't all concerts be at the Esplanade.
watwat
I just had four teeth extracted to make space for braces.
Not the wisdom toothies.
As I was heading back home, I had the weirdest conversation with my taxi driver.
Taxi driver: So you sick? Flu? Me: i gog my teefs egstrated. Taxi driver: Oh. Wisdom teeth? Me:(omg i really can't talk i'll just say yes) Yeg. Taxi driver: Oh... How much? Me:(omg why) Goo hungred and eggy tree dorers. Taxi driver: You extract 4? Me: Yeg. Taxi driver: Why so cheap? I extract 2. cost me $500. Me:(crap so my lie didn't work out too well... change plan) Huh.. waig, whad is wisdom teef? Taxi driver: The behind teeth lor. *points* Me: Oh... then I digen do wisdom teef. I did the frond teefs. Taxi driver: OK.
Me: (WHY IS HE TALKING TO ME CAN'T HE SEE I'M DYING)
Taxi driver: You still studying? Me:(no. D-Y-I-N-G.) Me: No, I waiting for A revel resulks. Taxi driver: You what JC? Me: Ha gong JC. Taxi driver: Hwa Chong? Wah. Isn't that the top JC? Raffles or Hwa Chong top ah? Me: Dey are aboug the zame. Taxi driver: Top 1 or 2 right. Wow, then you must be work very hard one. Me: Not reary... I was in nayang hi school, so i digen need to take o revels to geg in. Taxi driver: Oh... you must be very smart huh. Me:(Dude... I just told you i didn't know what wisdom teeth were!!! Not to mention I sound like a retard right now!!) ...No.
You have no idea how many dumbasses you get to meet in these schools. Taxi driver: So you working now? Me: Naw... I decideg to rest. Taxi driver: Oh.. just now, I fetched this girl at MOE. Around your age. I think she's finding a job there. Me: I hag sum frans who worg there. Taxi driver: Why are you not working? Me: I juss finished A revels and I'll be worgging for next 50 yeargs of my life... Why do I wang to stard worgging now?!!! Taxi driver: *laughs* Oh you know about the 50 years! No wonder la, you so smart in Hwa Chong JC. That girl probably not from your JC... she's not so smart. Me: ???!!!??!!
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What just happened?!!
Also - I swear I am not smart. My manfriend convinced me that he's never eaten a drumstick in his life.
I believed him.
how to draw a cat
braces
Welp I got my braces in a few days ago and couldn't eat solid food.
I had to eat porridge and I hate porridge. In fact, before I got braces, I've never eaten a bowl of that shit in my life. In kindergarten, they served porridge everyday and I went on a hunger strike before they finally let me eat the teachers' food. OK I sound like a total spoilt kid. But I never liked porridge.
I was really upset over my limited food choices. So Felicia suggested that I dissolve(?) biscuits in milk and I did just that! Marks and Spencer dark chocolate digestives in milk tasted good!!!
Then I told boyfran "DUDE i discovered this awesome new fudz - soggy biscuits!!!"
My well read boyfran was like "omg wat soggy biscuits trololol"
Hence destroying my new favourite food.
Being the nicest bf ever he also volunteered to make me some soggy biscuits.
Hand. made. Soggy. biscuit.
ugh!!!11
I also discovered that AVOCADO MILKSHAKE is the single most awesome fud on planet earth okay i'm on a total avocado milkshake craze now :D
i'm stalking
www.myrollingstar.tumblr.com
Because she has a cool room and I want to see more pictures of her room.
Everytime I see this I'm filled with feelings :(:(:( SO MANY FEELINGS
She's really good with copic markers too.
hair dye
Okay I dyed my hair with liese mocha orange bubble hair dye :)
For your information, in case you're looking for a DIY dye:
Looks like this in bright light.
Looks like this in pretty dim light.
It's not really obvious, but I don't know of any DIY dyes that make a huge difference to your hair. Previously, I have used Beauteen Apricot Orange and Revlon Colorsilk Red. All of them fade to that grassy brown you see most Singaporean girls sporting, usually within a month. And that's because all dyes fade to that colour eventually. Especially red/purples.
This dye was more drying than the previous dyes, but it was easy to apply and gave me a more even shade.
lol making stuff
Jubbie and I made chocolate-nutella-ferrerorocher cupcakes! They were awesomeee!! We gonna make oreo truffle ballz next
We recently re-organised our business strategy so we have a plan to make many charms now :3 We did a lot of research to make our products more durable. So we had to kill off many designs. Welp everything is neater now and yeahh I can't wait to make new stuff to sell.
We were discussing about making couple products and I said "WE CAN MAKE A DICK AND VAGINA" and that we can put it with the other cute stuff we make and offer them to couples.
random: I thought this was justin bieber but it turned out to be yagami light from death note :'c
And she was like srsly???? What if people ask me what it is I'll have to smile and say "Ah, that's a dick :)"
LOL OK
outside
mosburger has a new wagyu beef with pan fried egg burger and it's really fucking delicious
also pepper lunchsesame ice cream will be my fave ice cream five-eva
does anyone know where i can get more $10-$20 dresses online/in SG
junction10 is another new mall that has opened in singapore do check out
so busy why
I need to teach two people how to use photoshop; their jobs are at stake. Need to deal with my mother. My brother needs to make his decision about his future in a few days. Tomorrow I'm getting four teeth pulled out and I'll be in pain for two weeks. Haven't bought tickets for the fosterthepeople concert. Blasdghsajdgsaj.
whee artbooks
I got the Good Progress Award for improving last year! :3 The government gave me $250 so now I don't feel guilty about the money I spent recently on an LED lightbox and four graphic books. I bought three t-shirt design books and THE PIXIV 2011 official artbook!!! The PIXIV book is GORGEOUS. The art there makes me feel inferior and jelly :c
y u so good
I feel like i'm losing part of myself because I just can't bring myself to draw recently. I think I lost interest. I hope I get it back soon. I want to make stickers and design t-shirts and make more pretty art :( I also need to design something with my new photoshop resources. Anything. Probably a new website layout.
No one cares about anything new i draw or design now I think @_@ What is art without appreciation?
I'm only all talk now. sadface.
inspiration!!! please come nao.
I'M HIGH AT 4AM
SO BADASS ALRITE
Manfriend got drunk so he decided to declare our relationship status on facebook.
Here's the conversation!
^ now everybody knows your retarded lol
Speaking about the post!
I LIKE HOW FACEBOOK COULD NOT FIND ANY PICTURES OF US HARHAR WE BEAT THE SYSTEM ASHJGADFHADB WE BEAT LIFE BRO
Another thing I like to do is to call him 'bro'
And he'll be all SADFAYCE I'm friendzoned in a relationship :( forever alone level infinity :(
omg lol ok i'll shuddap
For the person(s) who asked about him on my tagboard:
Maaan um idk how to tell you guys about him but essentially... he's a good person. One of the few people who understand what I'm going through with my family and the only one who went all the way to help me even when we were friends a year ago. We are super awkward. We like cool music (but he no like justin bieber which made me very sad) and cats and internet memes and trolling and TV shows (community omg) and hugs :3
And when we got together I was like "Shit.. I need to get over this."
And he was like "You know.. people usually get over breakups??? Not getting together??"
I said something like "Omg but argh i dont believe it i need to get over it ok"
And he was like "Oh boohoo let's go get ice cream and mourn our getting together"
OKAY NO MORE.
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But one last thing
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I love him very much.
k i'll die in a corner now. i'll regret this tomorrow and take it down asjkdhayvbjs
BUT WHY
I'll rip his testicles off and make soup out of them! 
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