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Wednesday, November 12
Another note
I won this fucking design competition and they never BOTHERED to tell me what place I was. It means I'm probably not first/second/third.

IF THEY WERE GOING TO LET ME FRET LIKE THIS MIGHT AS WELL NOT PHONE ME!!

I don't want to go. I don't want to hear that I got a miserable consolation. It'll be such a fucking big dent to my ego.

I've always wanted to be the best but I know I'm not and will never be. I just don't need/want confirmation in this kind of thing. Which is why I refrain from joining competitions. Stupid CCA. Stupid.

http://www.asknlearn.com/myiclassic/index.html
Look at the prizes and see 3rd prize is. Hell, 2GB thumbdrives are $12. I don't own a stupid iPod and I can download photoshop from the internet anytime.
It means third prize is $12.
No way. Nooooooo way.

I'll try to tell myself that it wouldn't matter. This competition won't be a judge for my abilities. After all I didn't care to design a good design. It was something I wanted to get over with asap. Something I joined to fulfill the requirements of the CCA.

I wonder if I'll ever draw again. I wonder if I'll ever design again.
/cry
/slashes wrists

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