I am Musho / Xinni and I am an artist, designer and programmer. I'm a Singaporean living in California as a designer at Google. I blog about my
art, music, shows, games, beauty stuff, school and a lot of personal events in my life. You will feel awkward reading this if you know me.
Hi guys!
I failed my first driving test with 40 demerit points!!
The good things:
1. No immediate failures!
2. No failure to check blind spots
3. Perfect execution of vertical AND parallel parking, S-course and direction change.
4. Only one mistake made on the road, YOU STUPID LORRY. @^*@^#*@
My fumbles:
1. At the start, I got nervous and obstructed a vehicle.
2. While driving out of my parking spot I went too close to a motorbike.
3. The ramp, which I usually have no trouble executing, cost me 10 demerits.
4. I was too blur to hear my tester slam the car for the emergency brake.
5. I did not wear my lucky panty :/ It was in the wash.
I was not used to the level of the new ramp and the new circuit in general. It was very crowded and it was hard not to get close to cars.
I learnt a lot, but.
I feel bad for failing.
I will give it my all, on my next test. With luck, I can pass. I must tell myself I can.
My dad was very nice about it and he just said to try again.
I wore makeup to look grown up so that the tester will pass me. HS says she doesn't follow my logic but would award me points for being a bimbo. This alarmed me because my goal in life is to look like a bimbo, not to be one.
Oh yeh, so when I got out of the car, I knew I failed. Disheartened, I made my way to the review room and plonked myself on the chair and emoed. Then this person, who looked about twenty, sat beside me and attempted to start a conversation. He said: "How was your test?" I replied "Oh... I fucked it up."
And immediately regretted it. For one, Musho, YOU DONT SWEAR WHEN YOU'RE TALKING TO SOMEONE FOR THE FIRST TIME YOU LOUSY LOUSY LOUSY LOUSY - Anyway it was alright later on and he said my fail wasn't so bad.
Then the tester came in to review my test, and that person waited for me to be done before leaving the room (he just failed, for the 3rd time too), but I met my instructor, so I ran off without offering words of comfort or a 'good luck'. I wish I did, coz I feel very bad, but hopefully my lack of etiquette didn't affect that guy. I am always very reproachful about my actions but I hope I am just being critical about myself.. @_@
Anyway, WR says my fail is not that bad also. I think they are just trying to comfort me but I appreciate it. My papa failed 3 times and my uncle 7 times. I will just keep trying.
As I was leaving the driving center I saw all those who have just passed watching a big TV. The TV was playing happy music and a flowery female voice was saying '~*congrats on getting your license!!!~*'. The funny thing was that those people were watching it with stoned expressions. It was ridiculous because SHOUDN'T U BE HAPPY YOU CAN DRIVE NAO!??!?!?!?!!! I wanted to slap all of them but I walked out anyway.
So that wraps up the day of my driving test.
thx gaiz..
j: I heard The National concert was cancelled :( Me: WAIT WHAT? JESUS CHRIST ON A POGO STICK!!! The Nat? CANCELLED?!!! j: There was a big CANCELLED sign at the Esplanade :( Me: NO WAYYYYYYY!!!! *goes to check*
..AND WTF. The National is not coming to Asia.
My first concert. Cancelled ! WTF WTF WTF.
And so, I have decided to attend Switchfoot.
AND THEN.
kintan: do you know that the creator of pokemon died in the japan tsunami???? Me: huh. Me: WHAT?!?!?!??!?!! Me: THE CREATOR OF POKEMON!?!??! Me: NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO Me: (insert screams here)
-------my phone rings--------
Me: GUESS WHAT GB! GB: What happened? Me: ASJHJASHIUEHFpokemon JAHSKAHSKHAJScrator JHDKHDSKDHS dead NCDJSKBDKWBFJKWF incoherrent fjvsk KJSDBLSDrambling!!!!!!!!!!!! GB: I thought he already died.
Me: Kintan he's alreadyy dead! Kintan: Really but my friend told me he just died! Me: WELL WHO IS YOUR STUPID FRIEND? Kintan: It was __! Me: WELL YOUR STUPID FRIEND IS STUPID.
Me: Wait.
Google search:
Satoshi Tajiri creator of Pokemon is not dead in Japan’s Deadly Earthquake
Turns out it's just a rumour.
...
And he was never dead.
....
Books & Reading
I finished perks of being a wallflower.
It was wonderful.
Honestly when I was small I wanted to write something like that.
I wanted to write books and illustrate them.
I used to write short stories about teachers I disliked, and I made 7 pokemon comic books. During class. My teacher kept confiscating them and I kept stealing them back. There was this classmate who always asked to read them. I used to make up stories to tell my brother. I scored very high for essays in elementary school, and I really, truly loved writing. I wrote like Dahl becaused I loved his books. I still love Dahl.
Now I know I cannot write a book, because my language skills are mediocre. So poor that there was this girl who didn't want to be in the same English project group as me because she was scared I'd pull down the group's score. Incidentally this girl is now one of my best friends and she has probably forgotten, but it was then when I realized I shouldn't pursue this dream anymore. In fact, it was only today that I remembered I once had this dream.
I might have stopped writing but I have never stopped drawing. I am glad that I don't need to force myself to practice because when my mind wanders, and I come back down to Earth, I see that my hands are already working on a picture. Most of the time it is an ugly picture but it is still a magical thing. I may not be good but I am grateful that I like to do something that much.
Back to books!
I never read a lot. My parents never bought me books and my mother scolded me every time I borrowed them from the library. I think she threatened to beat me up if she ever saw me borrowing books again, but maybe I don't remember correctly because she threatened to beat me up for lots of things. And she did, when I did them. Since I don't live with them anymore, I think I should read more on my own. So today I borrowed the first book from The Hunger Games and I bought The Life of Pi.
I want to read Haruki Murakami but I've heard bad stuff about that writer. Like only pretentious people read that.
Then again, I should be reading about why phenols can react with aqueous sodium hydroxide while alcohols cannot. (can they!!?)
edit: OMFGG OKAY I LOVE THE HUNGER GAMES. In fact, I am going to do a comic of a scene from The Hunger Games! I could not put the book down and had to finish it in one sitting!! /crycrycry Which means I am dreading my coming tests... But GUYS YOU SHOULD TOTALLY READ IT!!!!
