Saturday, February 13
Sick.
today morning
mum (not christian @ all): at 7pm we'll get you, you come with us to meet pastor ong.
me: ???? what?? why?
mum: just go.
me: ?!??? Do what there?
mum: i also dont know. we all dont know we just go as a family!
me: why should i go if i dont know what it's about? anyway i've been to church before!
mum: cheebye. if you dont go you don't live in the house anymore. i'll throw out ALL your things in the room
me: ....
mum: I already told the pastor i'll bring you. he said you'll probably hate the place.
me: ....?!? judgmental much
mum: but i said i'll bring you anyway.
today 7pm
mum: where are you
me: i'm at city hall
mum: (calls) (screams into phone) KNN CCB HOW DARE YOU DITCH US? THIS IS NOT THE FIRST TIME YOU DID THIS (acc to her i 'ditched' the family when i said i had no appetite so i couldnt eat with em) (MORE SWEAR WORDS AND CURSES which i don't remember because i put the phone on the table and let her shout at me for 4min while i read my driving theory book)
mum: YOU COME TO NEWTON MRT RIGHT NOW OR I THROW YOU OUT OF THE HOUSE!
So I went to newton mrt with my fucking limp foot, to go to church to meet a pastor (??!??!)
Dad came and drove me to that church. My head was filled with WTFs. I really dunno why I was summoned to church.
Turns out it was like this.
I went into the church and pastor was talking about God in chinese. Since it was in chinese i couldn't comprehend a thing. then they sang some songs and said some prayers. I just sat there clueless, wondering what i was doing in that place.
then my mom wrote a note to me on an info flyer that tells you all about God. It said "The pastor is the one that wants to buy our house. Later got free food."
What. The. Fuck.
This is disgusting and low.
Did she bring us to like, suck up to the pastor or something?
OK then the pastor came to me and asked me some questions like age and school.
He said "did your mom force you to come here?"
I could only smile at him politely.
Then his wife came and gave us this form to fill up. it had Name: Contact no: (check box) I want to be visited and taught about God (check box) I want to be Christian. or something along those lines. I just stared and stared and i didn't know what to do with the form. Of course I didn't fill it up.
I was so sick of everything. I just left the place and went down to find that my dad had left.
My mum was just fucking screwed and sick.
She was eating their food.
I called my dad and asked him to come. I was hungry and havent eaten dinner but i refused to take anything from them. I just wanted to get out. i didn't belong.
And now, my mother is cursing me with vulgarities and death threats for 'depriving my dad of rest' because i called him to take me away. Apparently my mother banned him from picking us so that we could be trapped in that place.
Yes, i know you are like 'WTF' now. I feel WTFy also. I don't see the whole point of this. Well what can you do? You can't see through the mind of a crazy person, can you?
I hate it. Every night before I sleep, the last word i hear is either 'you knn (fuck your mother LOL)' or 'ccb (vagina)' or 'your dad so old wait till he die you will have to drop out of school' or 'i dont know why i have a daughter like you'. And I don't say anything to her. She just comes in and starts shouting @ me. She'll shout at me for 1 hour and when I ignore her/argue she'll hit me or threaten to ruin my things. I can't sleep in peace at all. She'll make up lies about me and pick on the smallest things eg. Why you hang your towel like this? it will fall down! why can't you hang the towel at its middle?
I hate it when they say i resemble her.
i don't want to be like her when i grow up. lie about everything unhappy about everything blame others for everything and for nothing.
5 day holiday
Left my calculator in school and there's a 5 day holiday. Guess I won't be doing any work -.-
wtf 5 days in hell
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