Thursday, August 16
sad :(
I don't like NUS. It might be because I'm unhappy to be schooling again after so long, but there are many things that make me feel intimidated, stressed or sad.
The school is so
big!! The bus stops are forever crowded. Even
with a car, travelling is a big pain :( I miss living near school. I miss waking up in the afternoon. I miss having kintan as a room mate.... no one to talk to when I go home.
I miss my
friends the most - I teared up the other day thinking about how I won't be able to attend lectures with Abby, Felicia and Zeke anymore. They always saved me a seat. I'm not friendless here, I kind of have a group to sit with, but I just don't know if I can be close to a group like I am with my girls. Okay, I am tearing up now. I really miss them.
Sometimes I think that I'm too much of an antisocial judgmental person. That I'm the one who refuses to make friends/hang out and after that I whine about not having friends/being alone. I don't know what's wrong with me :(:(
The
lack of uniformity intimidates me. I know this is hypocritical of me since I used to hate following dress codes back in high school. But I only realise now how calming uniformity is. In hwachong, the people seemed to blend in with the surroundings and everybody looked the same. Hence they were easier to ignore. I find it difficult to ignore my surroundings here. So many colours! So many people! I feel frightened being there.
I don't know what to think about my
modules so far. From reviews, they are ALL very content heavy and two of them are
the killer modules.
And everybody seems to be pretty
competitive. Right now people have finished their recitations and homework but I've done nothing and I'm blogging!!! Ok, it reminds me of the start of JC when I fell behind really quickly...
...
THIS IS NOT JC ANYMORE! I only have one semester for each module and after finishing it it's GONE!! I don't have 2 whole years to salvage my subjects. I really need to try to have a good start which I never had. I'm really not sure how I'll do now. I'm still unable to pay attention in lectures. I think I will start skipping some.
I miss JC where I knew I could safely skip classes and sleep in.
Yeah I already have
homework.
It's gonna pile up which means I get to see Eddy less :(
The good thing is
food is cheap and good! Fooood!!! :D And so many water coolers around the campus!
And guys REMIND ME NOT TO GIVE FRESHMEN DIRECTIONS. I tried to be helpful to this freshman and checked my map of NUS for him and I pointed him to the wrong direction!! When I found out I ran back to find him but he was
gone!!! I was actually on my way to the toilet, but I felt so embarrassed about it I immediately left the building and drove home with a crying bladder.
Brave
Brave is the WORST CARTOON MOVIE EVER. I never knew Pixar could disappoint but it did. I've heard a lot of good stuff about it like it being feminist(??) but I really don't think it is. Pixar doesn't know how to portray women at all. I can't believe children are watching this. It's worse to show a child porn.
Throughout the whole movie I was like this
Spoilers! Highlight below to see why i thought it sucked.
I'm not on the best terms with my abusive mother but I KNOW THAT IS NOT HOW YOU TREAT YOUR MOTHER AT ALL. And Merida's mom, why are you being so forgiving? Your daughter is a COMPLETE DICK. If I turned my mother into a bear I would be so fucking sorry alright?! I won't go 'This isn't my fault, I only tried to XXX' and then make her hunt for her own food. When my mother fails to catch fish, I won't use my weapons and say 'See, who said ladies should not own weapons?' MERIDA, SHE WOULD NOT HAVE NEEDED WEAPONS IF YOU HAD NOT TURNED HER INTO A FUCKING BEAR!
What the fuck did Merida do to make you adopt a different stand on marriage!? To make you admit that she was right? This was not explained in the movie. All Merida did was destroy the life of her mother, made her loving husband almost murder her and subjected her to ridicule and physical abuse. AND AFTER ALL THIS, THE FILM SAYS MERIDA IS RIGHT? This is telling kids that they should turn their mothers into bears, be completely unapologetic and disrespectful and get their own way in the end.
Eh, I'm not even a mother but I'm already super angry. I can't believe that one mom in the movie theater told her kids 'Good movie, I liked the story'. WAT!?!?!?
driving
On the bright side I drove all the way from manfriend's house in Hougang to NUS! That's
East to West and I didn't die!!! I'm driving alone a lot more now and getting used to the road. Still scared of death though.
I even drove to Orchard Road oh my god but I kind of died there in a non literal way but whatevs I will improve ok~*~*~*
house matters
Some retard went through my gate and dumped a road cone in front of my door!!
What the fuck!! What did I do to you to deserve a road cone at my door!!?! It's absolutely unsightly!!!
Also I think a kitten just moved into my front porch. Problem is that it looks very thin and starving and hides from us. I really want to regularly feed the kitten in my front porch omg! I'll even let it poop there. I'm not sure if it'll stay permanently but I hope it does. Going to get kitten food later!!
I KNOW WHAT UR THINKING OK but the kitten DID NOT put the road cone there.
leather jacket
GUYS I'm looking for a cheap but nice
leather jacket to wear with dresses! I've gone to HnM, topshop, zara and mango but the price range is
$80-$120. I feel too broke at the moment to spend so much money on a piece of clothing, and I don't wish to break my record of not having anything worth more than $30 in my closet. So if you know of any shops please tell me please :D
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