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Monday, February 16

Very long post ahead due to lack of update

I am trapped in an emo cocoon of emoness.
I will now list out reasons why I am sad.

#1 pandabag
For some reason, 10 days after I bought pandabag for $70, there were a few ugly ink stains on them. They looked fugly and I was desperate to remove them. I went to Guardian to buy isopropyl alcohol - I heard that it removed ink stains.
Ink stains remained and pandabag developed grey coloured measles. Apparently, pandabag's original colour was grey and isopropyl rubbed off the white dye.
But I didn't know. I thought this grey was a dirt stain and as long I rub more isopropyl, it'll go off.
So I spammed my kleenex with a gallon of isopropyl and rubbed HARD on pandabag.
The grey spots, thus, grew ever more obvious and depressing.

Fuck.
Pandabag barely lasted 2 months.
Fuck.
I need a new bag.
Fuck.
This is killing me.

Why is it that "cute" and "don't get dirty easily" and "cheap" never go together? Every minute I am praying there is actually a bag out there that's as adorable and pandabag, that's of a dark colour, that costs less than $50.
Where art thou? Where can I find such a precious thing?

I hold pandabag very dear to me. Seeing it like that is utterly devastating, it's like seeing a lover die. Stop laughing at me, you heartless asshole. I am truly mourning for the fugly grey spots on pandabag. You don't understand.

#2 pencilbox
MY PENCILBOX HAS OPIANG INKSTAINS ON IT TOO!!!!!
I BOUGHT IT LESS THAN A MONTH AGO.
Fuck, am I really not suitable to look after them?
What if I have a baby and when it's less than a month old I scald it with boiling water? Am I really this kind of person? Or is it some jealous soul who stained pandabag and pencilbox?!
For pete wentz sake, stop doing this to me.

#3 homework
Homework never stops. It's like an abusive father hitting his child with a clothes hanger over and over again. Every blow rains down on you with a cruel sharp ....... you get the idea.
It is so terrible that I didn't get to blog for 2 weeks.
Every day it's either homework, food or sleep. I feel myself getting more boring and stupid. We should take studying like we're acquiring more knowledge and getting wiser, but when I see people spout longarithmic formulas, I think nothing but "GEEK" and "BORING".
Also, I am also not getting full coorperation when doing work with friends.. it gets me even more worked up and stressed. The datelines I've set were barely met and slipups occur frequently. I can feel my studying-KI-or-ELL-in-hwachong goal drifting further and further away from me. I have yet to hear a proper reason or apology from them. Maybe I was always given the easier tasks to do? Maybe they are truly busy? Why do I feel that I am the only one working hard?
I am so scared for next year. I feel like I'm stupid. I feel like I'm boring.
I have to work hard!!!

#4 Graces
Thanks rachel for lending me the dress!
I wore it at home the other day.

Life is shortchanging me.
I have flabby arms and no boobs.
I look fat, even though I am 80% in the weight for height category.
Why, in primary school, did I wish for myself not to have boobs?

I am constantly reminding myself that I have the ability to create beautiful pictures.
But when I see the professionals draw, i feel inferior.
*whirlpool of confusion*

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I think I should really stop being like this. Heck, i'll just buy a new bag and pencilbox. I'll complete my homework eventually. When I have money I can go for bust enhancement although they don't work. Right?

Actually, I am not working very very hard. I've stopped my work at some point to read up on trashy news and manga.

news #1.
A 13-year-old boy has become a father after his girlfriend gave birth to a baby daughter.

Alfie Patten, who is 4ft (122cm), was just 12 when he and Chantelle Steadman, 15, conceived their child.
The schoolboy is now father to 7lb 3oz Maisie Roxanne, born on Monday.

In an interview with The Sun newspaper Alfie, who looks even younger than his 13 years, told how he and Chantelle were shocked and upset when they discovered she was pregnant, but decided against an abortion.

He said: "I thought it would be good to have a baby.

"I didn't think about how we would afford it. I don't really get pocket money. My dad sometimes gives me £10.

"When my mum found out, I thought I was going to get in trouble. We wanted to have the baby but were worried how people would react.

"I didn't know what it would be like to be a dad. I will be good, though, and care for it."

full news report here

Apparently, when asked how he was going to take care of poor Maisie financially, Alfie asked, "WHAT'S FINANCIALLY?"
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*headdesk*
*HEADDESK*
I feel awfully sorry for the baby.

And if you think this isn't fucked up enough, read this.

Boy, 13, may not be baby's father
Baby-faced Alfie Patten may not be a father at 13 after all amid allegations that the mother has had several other sexual partners, it was reported today.

Two other teenagers believe they may have fathered six-day old Maisie, whose mother Chantelle Steadman is herself just 15.

Richard Goodsell, 16, told the News of the World that he also shared a bed with the teenager at her home in Eastbourne, East Sussex, at around the time she became pregnant.

Richard, a trainee chef, said: "I know I could be the father. Everyone thinks I am. My friends all tell me that the baby has my eyes - even my mum thinks so.

"Even Chantelle's mum asked me if I was the father. If I am the father, I have the right to know."

Richard, who told the paper he slept with Chantelle with the consent of her parents and without using any contraception, said he plans to demand a DNA test is carried out to find out the truth.

Tyler Barker, 14, also told the paper he could have fathered Maisie, born at the Eastbourne District General Hospital last week.

He said he slept with Chantelle around nine months ago, again in her own bed.

Realising the gravity of the situation, he added: "I hope it's not me."

At this point in time, do I have the right to think, "slut"?
Truth is, people judge. I can't help it.
You fucking idiot. You don't know it's a LIFE involved here. Can you be more responsible?! USE A CONDOM FOR FUCK'S SAKE!!!
WTH is wrong with the girl's parents. The guy slept with her with her parents' permission leh!

news #2
"Daniel Petric, 15 at the time, shot his parents in October 2007 (killing his mother) after they took away his violent Halo 3 video game. In January 2009, Judge James Burge pronounced Petric guilty of murder, rejecting his lawyers' claim that Petric was insane at the time because he had confused "killing" cartoon avatars with killing humans. However, even though the legal test of insanity was not met, Judge Burge acknowledged that Petric "had no idea at the time he hatched this plot that if he killed his parents, they would be dead forever."

See? This is why I don't play Halo and Counterstrike and shitty violent games. I prefer gay games like pokemon and hamtaro, thanks. I'm proud to say that I've completed Pokemon fire red two times, leaf green once, emerald seven times, ruby two times and sapphire once. And I'm such a peaceloving creature! ^.^

news#3
A MALAYSIAN taxi driver raped his woman fare, then had the temerity to ask her to pay up for sending her home.

Rapists should all be castrated. Period. I'm still a peace loving creature.

news#4
I WANT THE WORLD'S BIGGEST BOSOM

This woman is crazy ok!! @_@
I'd say that her plight is much more tragic than mine!
if you ask me, abnormally huge fake boobs is far worse than abnormally small boobs!
article here

news #5
TV station reports 'Bush dead'
Hahahahahah! Oh my god, i love this one ok.

For three seconds ETV News ran a moving banner headline across the screen saying "George Bush is dead", reports the BBC.

A technician had pressed the "broadcast live for transmission" button instead of the one for a test-run.

"We've learned from it, all test banners will now be done in gobbledegook," said station spokesman Vasili Vass.

HAHAHHAHAHAH! Funny TV station.
If you don't understand, they wanted to do a test run for a headline. Since test runs won't be broadcasted, they can put anything they want there, so they put 'GEORGE BUSH IS DEAD'! But they accidentally broadcasted it. HAHAHAHAHAH!

(/End news)

Janice and I went to buy clay to make keychains! Clay was extremely expensive - we ended up paying $36 for the materials. We bought jumping clay, a new type of clay from korea that is squishy and very lightweight!

I know I won't be bored during useless lectures anymore, because I will be coming up with new character designs to make keychains with.
We'll be making keychains, earrings, and hairclips!
And we'll probably be selling them.

Cowaii

Art shops = awesome.
Can make 5 custom badges for $4.30 there!
So many stuff to ogle at.
Bought a bag to draw on.
Bought a metallic marker to draw with.
Bought a grey ZIG marker to shade characters.

Manga
I still have to improve my drawing skills.
Recently I read a manga called 'loveless'. Everyone there is gay or lesbian.
But the art is so nice.

If you are damn bored and want some good manga, I've saved a list of artists who have either very good art or storyline, or both.
Here goes.

SHINBA Rize,YUKIMARU Moe, Toma Rei, SHIINA Karuho, IZUMI Kaneyoshi, NAKAHARA Aya, USAMI Maki, MIYASAKA Kaho, SHIMAKI Ako, IKEYAMADA Go, CHIBA Kozue, SHINJO Mayu, NISHIKATA Mai, Hiro Fujiwara, Tomori Miyoshi, Fujimiya Ayu, YOSHIZUMI Wataru, ANISAKI Yuna, Yun Kouga

I recommend lovely complex and moe kare and otomen. But anything by ^them^ is very good already.
(All girly and shoujo)
Sites where you can read them are mangafox, maxmanga, mangavolume and onemanga. You can enter the artist name in mangafox's search.

You need lots of free time.
I spent the last few months before EOY reading half the manga database. Lack of neopets, you see. I still worked quite hard ok!!!!!!!!

WAH LAO!!!!! I HAVE SO MANY THINGS TO DO!!!!!
-homework
-study
-make keychains
-read manga
-keep self up to date on newest music
-improve drawing skills
-read more to improve vocab
-update blog
That's when I've quitted watching asian dramas already.
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Labels: boy shoots mom thanks to Halo, clay, depressed, homework, i love art shops, I love pokemon, inkstains, keychains, manga, pandabag, teenage pregnancy, wtf load of shit to do

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