Tuesday, February 16
No internet..
I'm currently writing this on notepad, deprived of internet because my device killed itself. Thanks to this I am now back to drawing girls.
Wth I wished i payed attention during chem tutorial and not blindly copy janice's worksheet.. now I'm redoing the whole thing by myself without my calculator and it sucks. I am still upset that I have to study chemistry for the next 2 years.
Boo it's so tiring... 86 marks last year must have been luck @_@
I just spent 48 hours doing 6
easy questions of the tutorial. Inclusive of sleep, meals, distraction of the computer and more sleep.
And I left a few blank.
Clap for me.
Me: Whats a molecule?
Me: Whats an ion..?
Abigail: ....
I need tuition!!!! D:
"Homework, you are not attractive and I will not do you"
daily drama
Dear mother just gave my laptop 2x6cm scratches across the screen :)
I turned up the music loud because she was shouting at me and she promised not to talk when i turned off the music. So when she started insulting me I turned the music up and she slammed my laptop down. The scratches make my OCD do somersaults! I can't stand anything ugly/dirty on my property :'( Which explains why i decorate almost everything I own..
Before this, she went into the van and raided all my possessions. She dropped my things on the grass. She moved my things. Dammit, i hate people raping my things. There are things still in the van because I may run away any moment. Then my dad can just drive my things to wherever I go.
I keep telling my dad to help himself. Papa, help yourself and get a divorce. Papa, why did you marry this kind of person. Papa, why don't you send her for treatment. But no, he's in another room packing her shit. w0w, i'll be shocked if i can find another man like him in this world. I can't stand watching this unfairness going on. It is very sad to be surrounded by looney and stupid adults. My dad is such a pussy. Last year he bought a new mercedes and said 'I won't let mum put anything inside.' Look at your merc now dad. Full of her junk, how are you gonna get respect from anyone if they look into your car. I mean, if someone fucked with MY merc, they'd get it from me. How can you just let someone do this to your merc?!!!!! YOUR CAR!!!?
Now, she is going into the van raping all my belongings. She is bringing random things into the house. She is asking me "So, which XXX do you want to give to YYY?". Although I begged her a trillion times not to touch or move my things or give my things away. After all they are my things. But she has to get her hands on everything I own. First the things i bring into the house, now it's the things I don't dare to bring into the house. Yesterday, she spent the whole day going through my belongings. I don't know what she has done to them. And then when she sees some thing of mine, she'll spend 20 minutes questioning me about it. Now, some of my belongings are together with the shit in the house. I don't know how I am going to put them all back. All the things I have painstakingly organized took out, scattered apart and raped.
"You should be paying me $2000 for going through all your things. You are such an ingrate"
Thank you people who offered to help me. :D I may be renting a room soon. Soon meaning... late march. So I have to move somewhere temporary first. I don't know where though. I feel bad leeching from friends. Maybe a hotel or something.
Monday
Went out with abby on monday :)
Since my dear mom has to touch everything i own, she even set my clock 20 minutes fast, which made me arrive in orchard 30 minutes early :):)
,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,We went to uniqlo and bought furry jackets for $20.. they were originally $50. I feel like I've saved lots of money but in truth I've just spent $20. Wtf right. OMG I can't wait to wear my furry jacket. It's a purple furry jacket and it makes me look like a barney when i'm wearing my athena shirt.
Besides that, we keep stroking
ourselves our own jackets because it feels soooo nice ^_^ We just want to hug people with it!
Watched tooth fairy which wins the trashiest movie of february award.
And then we went to sephora to spray perfume on my jacket because it stank of my house.
Received a call from my mother who instructed me to go to my grandparents' house at 6.
And so I went.
Of course, of course the rest of my family weren't there. Why is it that I always predict the worse thing my mother would do, and it always happens?
So I just sat on the sofa (trying to) read my (horribly cheem) book.
Then after waiting for them for 1 hour, I received a call from her and she said she didn't want to go anymore. She blamed my dad (as usual) and said that he "played us all out" by coming 30 minutes late to pick her up.
Wah, this kind of husband very nice leh, chauffeur me around, then when i want to ditch something last minute, i just blame him for coming XXXX minutes late!
I talked to my mom's younger bro and he said that she was like that ever since she was young and it just got worse because now theres no 1 to control her. He seemed afraid to talk about her (for god knows why) so I couldn't extract much from him.
When i reached home, tried to sleep but she shouted at me for 30mins non stop.
Turned off the aircon and threatened to take away my blanket if i ever used my blanket while the aircon is on again. So I either have to 1. Have a fan (Btw the thermostat reads 31 celsius with the fan...) and use a thick blanket or 2. Use the aircon with no covers.
I. have. to. get. out.
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