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Friday, September 26

privilege
I was at the food court.

I heard cans clattering to the floor. I looked up. An elderly janitor was bending down slowly to pick them. Then she struggled to stand upright again. Then she wobbled to the tray clearing station and started doing dishes.

I think I almost cried. I hate seeing elderly with health problems straining themselves to do menial work for meager pay... I hate it. :(

And I'm also reminded about how privileged I am... I have a college education ffs, even have grad school secured... yet I'm so unhappy not having more. I shouldn't be this ungrateful, but somehow I can't stop myself from being upset.

I guess I'm also sad because the main characters in shows I watch are dying lol. Welcome to fandom, Musho.

alone
I used to feel weird not having someone around me, but now I actually prefer being by myself now.

But I feel so unsafe omg. I just read about unsolved crimes in Singapore. I always thought Singapore was really safe but this March, there was a sexual assault in West Coast. And I heard of some crimes that happened many years ago, like the unsolved Tiong Bahru murder of the 4 Tan children and two murder-rapes that happened to jogging women. Argh!

bakes

Ignore that label, I made this myself lol.

Made lavender lemon shortbread for the second time because the first time turned out so well :) Brought some to school, saw a friend in class and demanded that he eat my food.

Upon saying "food", everybody in class turned around and stared. I only had two cookies left BECAUSE I ATE MOST OF THEM so I gave it to the people who looked the most starving LOL. Their looks of happiness when I gave them cookies! Aah!! I didn't know people would want to eat them. I hope I can bake more for them!!

They also asked me where to get cheap lavender and I told them: $2.20 for a WHOLE JAR at those chinese dried herbs shops. They sell other flowers too, like chamomile. Who knew you could find such jems in neighbourhood shops? :)

kittycomic

I made a comic about cats in SG for my NM3228 assignment!
Right click and view to full view.

Some people in my class didn't know about the situation and I'm glad that the comic enlightened some people :')

Meowmeow!

PWvsAA
I finished the game!

SHES MY BABY!!!!!!!!! ToT
I took SOO many photos of her haha.
She reminds me of those hot guys in VNs.

I trained this baby from Lvl 10 all the way and evolved him with a fire stone :) First time I ever did that. So proud! Usually I'd just use my starter ALL THE FKING WAY lol.

Having a grass starter is really hard.

aroma

BAHAHAHHA I HAVE MORE NOW!!
Current favourite: lemon eucalyptus

Still need chamomile but it's $60 per bottle oh god

I swear I lead a hedonistic lifestyle - I must sleep with super cold aircon, burritoed in a thick comforter, with lavender or bergamot oils infused in my pillows, on lyocell bedsheets. Not to forget, I must play good music, draw beautiful things and snack on belgian chocolate thins. T_T BUT SERIOUSLY GAIZ, TRY THESE:

You can find them in cold storage!! They are so amazinG!!!

nozaki
EVERYONE NEEDS TO WATCH GEKKAN SHOUJO NOZAKI KUN PLS

cut hair
I cut my hair with janice~!

We went to Hair Eclipse at Far East Plaza (with groupons!). Second time we went there! Both of us were satisfied with the service and the hairstylists were so pleasant and OMG THEY ACTUALLY COMPLIMENTED MY HAIR COLOR instead of insulting it AAA!???

Before:

After:

Okay I seriously don't have any nice photos of it yet but I like it and bf REALLY loves it lmao.

Labels: 3ds, anime, art, baking, comic, food, hair, rant, Selfies

Tuesday, February 11

heavenly beat

sorry
Sorry for the lack of updates. Actually, I have a lot of topics to talk about but they accumulated and I got too lazy to fill 'em in. Like makeup reviews :(

So I'll just post the short ones first.

My workload got heavier but I will try to update. I update my tumblr and instagram a lot more than here.

geeky
I was singled out as (or at least, they implied that I was) a weak programmer among my group, by a teacher who hadn't seen me/us write a line of code. They said the rest of my group were "clearly geeks" while I was just the "artist"... and that they were "much stronger programmers". I felt maligned, and told them my grades for all my programming subjects. They apologised, but now I feel scared of being judged and stereotyped.

We have to put a photo up for our software engineering project manual and I wanted to put a photo I thought I looked pretty in but I chose a photo with glasses instead, to look more "geeky".

I don't want my marker to think I didn't do anything for it because I don't look like a programmer.

Lol this is the geekiest photo I could find in my repository.

I liked this..

After all, me with glasses is closer to the "passionate programmer" stereotype. The passionate programmer who lives for code, and abandons appearance, hygiene and social life to code. Which i think is ridiculous... who is actually like that?!

Stereotypes are harmful.

edit: oops, here's a little bit of context. My teacher is actually quite nice. She said those things because she noticed I didn't participate much in an online discussion. I think she didn't have any bad intentions, though it seemed a little hasty to conclude that I was a weaker programmer from the discussion. And then I got reminded of this article, the asian male computer programmer privilege.

CS2105
Wow, I actually got B+ for CS2105 Introduction to Networks.

It's all thanks for my TA really. He is fucking nice!!

I was failing all the way before finals, so I must have done really well for finals. And I couldn't have done it without my TA's help.
I did work hard for finals. So I'm really glad.

Also, I don't remember a thing I learned for the module.

CS3240
I met my CS3240 Human Computer Interaction professor in the lift with my friend. She said "hi".

I asked how she recognised us... and she said she remembers my drawings.
And that I'm her top student!!

OMFG....!!!! I had no idea!!!!!!!
I topped a module..!!!!!!!!!!!

She said a few people got the same grade as me but marks wise I was the top...

WOOOOWHAGSHAGSHJAGJFLA

I am so harpee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I don't know if she likes me, or if she would have me, but I really wouldn't mind doing research in Interaction Design for FYP. ( TwT);;

Applause
I asked a question in EL1101E lecture today.

The teacher said it was out of syllabus but it was interesting I asked it.
He started explaining the concept...
And drew stuff on the whiteboard.

I was like omg no this has gone too far :((

And then he said asians should speak up more and ask questions during lecture. He was very happy.

And then he asked the whole lecture hall to applaud me.

I was like pls FUCK NO

And Kintan was laughing at me T_T

But honestly, I find it ironic because I'm usually the last person to speak up. So I'm pretty proud of myself for actually voicing out something!

Also the lecturer is so cute. He's japanese, and I find it so cute that we get to call him Sato Sensei for an English module. :')

my house :)

photos

I love this dress~!

FINALLY a cloud dress.

My hair when it's in a bun.

I finally have a curler. I'm not very used to using it yet.

I can't believe koreans have a serum for GROWING eyebags now.

I thought they were bad omfg. I don't get the beauty industry

School stuff.

pokemon

I have a 3DS now. I am playing Ace Attorney and Pokemon X ^^
I play so much... My friend said it's gonna destroy me this sem ._. Maybe if I play more.. I can complete this game faster...??

I must say the graphics and animation for pokemon has improved by 700%. They even animate pokemon fainting. And every single pokemon for pokemon Amie.

My street pass comment is "wow such street". I love it when people reply "very pass" lol.

My fennekin (now delphox) is called Oh SHIT, he.

My name. I am so creative right

I just love pokemon

my most liked fb post

...much proud

driving
I went for refresher driving courses in the holidays.

It went alright.
The instructor actually told me my driving is "quite good."

I said I'd sign up for more lessons soon.
And he said I didn't need them because I was already quite good.

I don't know if it's true but it certainly makes me feel a lot better after the accident happened. I am less afraid to die on the road.

But sometimes I still get anxiety when I see cars and buses... they are just killing machines in my eyes. :(

gimme.sg
I chanced upon this site: www.gimme.sg
And it lists down cool stuff that ship to Singapore.